Scripts of My Life

a cup of thoughts on Chinese New Year

2012-01-28T23:29:00.005+08:00

Chinese New Year- a season where reunion of family and friends that meant more than anything to the Chinese community in Malaysia. More so for the families where all the generation gather. Every member marks down their attendance and get ready to feast in anyway we can :)

This year CNY, as usual, we ate, gathered, chat and laughed. As i grow older, i can feel that families really mean a lot. It doesn't matter about what great dish we're eating, but it's the people that make the dishes and the round table extraordinary. The elderly will always ask the young ones to eat more while the young ones will ask the elderly to eat together, don't just stand there and watch us eat :) How wonderful the scene is, isn't it?

As an easterners, especially Chinese, we do not know how to express emotion/feeling openly. We close ourselves up. Sometimes, we can only show actions. That's how it is. Chinese use a lot of reverse psychology too. When they said this is not good enough, they actually just want us to be better. Well, maybe we are in such culture that we are never good. Haha! Hmmm, this shall leave to my generation to give it a lil change.

Every family has story to tell. We play our own manuscript. What i want to say is that only family can provide unconditional love. There's nothing called trading of love. I believe i am blessed. Relatively, i am blessed with a good family. Parents love us unconditionally. They provide anything they can. I hope one day, i'll be able to contribute in anyway i can too because i believe it's time to do something about it.

There are few lessons learned in 2012 CNY. It was an emotional rush for me too. As i looked back my family and those folks at old folks home, i believe my family members are highly blessed because we never knew that one mandarin orange and a RM2 angpao could mean so much to others. This year round, i learned to be contented in life even more. I learned to love others. I learned that friends can mean so much too because they're my loyal supporters in anywhere they are. I learned that my friends' families also mean a lot because the families too, know us well. The bond and tie can always be strengthen with mutual effort.

As this season draws closer to an end, no matter what it is, family is still a family. Friends are still a good bunch. God gives us a family to love and be loved. God gives us people to love. We gotta cherish it and accept it. As i read a book today, i've also learned that forgiveness is such a beautiful virtue. When we forgive others, we too, forgive ourselves. Give some leeway to people to breathe. All in all, we only can live once. Do not live in the dark because we can alwaysl tilt our heads to see the sun :)

Happy Chinese New Year, folks! :)

season is here

2012-01-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine used to share the idea of "seasonal friend". I believe some of you might have heard about this term. I was quite against the philosophy behind it but now i realised actually it's quite natural. It's just like how a season starts to change, so does a relationship in life.

I used to tell my friend that it takes two hands to clap because that's how the world is. Everyone is relational to each other. As i was chatting with my other friend a while ago, she said let's take it easy and we shall strike a balance in relationship. If this doesn't work, it just does not work. Hmmm, very well said. Being a stubborn me, i am perseverance. I persevere on things that i hold strongly.

Then flash thoughts came to my mind recently that i really do not mind about this anymore. In fact, i was worried why i don't. Then i realised, i think i am tired of this. I don't like to have seasonal friendships. I want to be sincere. I want to be proactive. At the same time, i guess part of me wanted to be loved as well. The more you give, the more you feel tired because you do not even know how to make an expectation anymore. It serves like a bonus when there is and we have to move on if there's no bonus to gain.

Let the nature take the course :) I had surrender this onto Him and i believe one day, He will answer.

angelic for 15 mins

2012-01-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

How about being an angel publicly during birthday? :) Ever believe in karma? like doing something bad and u'll get bad in return? :) Now this is my showtime! :)

Bunch of colleague humiliated me at public and making me an angel to get 5 signatures from people!!!!! *low self-esteem. drawing circles at one corner.*

ANYWAY! I had fun! =) I love to speak to people. So, this challenge is still alright for me :) Not very humiliating but it's very memorable. Thank you(s) for creating an "impact" in my life. I think i'll only return to Pavilion after half a year =p

the two evils at the back healping me to tie my hair like a retarded girl!

naughty!

the two who drove me to pavilion -.-"

saying wanted to eat dinner with me -.-"

this mummy was super sporting. She signed for me and told me it's her daughter's birthday too! haha! :D

the last 2 girls who signed this :)

cupcake treats at The Loaf.

for the 6 of us :)

Thank you for spending the night with me. I had fun! U guys just wait for ur turn ok? :) I'll be back fully charged! :D

the gifts

2012-01-24T15:32:00.005+08:00

i realised, birthday has becoming less and less significant as years go by. Come on, i am still young. -.-" As always, i made wishes. Less wishes made this year round too :) I guess i had summarized them all, if not by the time i finished, people around me will be gone and the candles will melt. =) Thank you all for the birthday celebration and the gifts.

Mimi always like to hide gifts at somewhere that i don't get to see :) Thanks for the watch although there was a lil casualty. Haha! Appreciate your time and effort. May both of us continue to grow in our friendships with endless "time"- since u gave me a watch :)

A letter and a cheque from my great friend from Muar- Hui Ru. I realised now we're more like a pen-pal ady. Haha! :) Thanks Huiru, it really came as a huge surprise when i reached home. Thanks for the cheque for the old folks home :)

An angpao from Grandma.

Old people do not fancy gift but likes to give angpao as a blessing.

Treasure it =)

a lipgloss from my aunt :)

i like the colour! =) Natural :D

Another surprise on 1st day of CNY from my cousin.

The package consists of a set of prayer cards and a set of biblical emotion cards which i think it's so so useful! :) Really appreciate it, Veronica! :')

My sis knocked the door and came in dancing with the birthday card.

Hahahhaa! Thanks for the o-bit card. Love the message =)
Family is always the one who remembers you.
Friends too :)

Thanks all for the wishes. Appreciate u guys!
Without u all, i am nothing while standing tall here as a 26 year old young woman. :)

Meaningful Birthday

2012-01-24T14:33:00.002+08:00

A special birthday for me. More so for me, i believe it's a moment that i felt it so much at home someday in few months ago that i believe it's a calling for me to fulfill one of my life missions. "Life helps lives. Life touches lives. Life loves the lives of others."

To initiate and organize it wasn't tough but it was the coordination part that challenged me lot. As i looked back and reflected the process with the moment when my hands were held by those old folks, i am telling myself and God that it was worthy all along. It was and will be worthy. This moment you might see them but who knows the next round we revisit, people will be different already.

Sometimes, it isn't always about money, it isn't always about what's the return, it isn't always about we being busy, but it is just to fork out a few hours of our time, or even just a few minutes for these abandoned ones. Physical appearance meant so much. It's enough to see the wrinkled faces lit up by happiness and joy. It's enough for them to find some young faces to chat and it's more than enough for them to feel themselves as a parent to some of us (just for that few secs), for them to give us some strokes of hair, for them to give advice like a mum or dad. It is also reasonable for us to put words into action for the community.

I was happy because my minimum expectation was made. A friend was rightly mentioned that not a lot of people are of the same direction. Therefore, I didn't even dare to make a great expectation. All i know is we still can start somewhere, especially we, the Canossian Convent girls should do a lil bit more further than the rest because apart from the old folks, it is also about the caregivers (the sisters) that we could visit. Start small. Give a lil bit more. That's all they need and that's also what we can do :)

Psalm 18: 28-29 - "You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall."

It was a special birthday that i created for myself, first time ever.

Happy Birthday :)

p/s: The photo above was a surprise souvenir from one of the sisters. Appreciate it.

a pot of thoughts

2012-01-07T21:21:00.002+08:00

it's just a beginning of the year and i have much thoughts over some events of life that i thought it was important to me.

disappointment strikes and i realised i couldn't comprehend this feeling well enough. yes, i am blessed with people around that i can rant about, but the disappointed feeling in someone important is simply indescribable. i do not want to blame but to embrace the change. i guess through embracing this stagnant yet changing r'ship, i could feel much better. i mind the passive you. i mind. maybe u are not aware or i looked too ok with it. my bad. well, we ought to move on. it might be greener from the other end. that's what dr. tun said, if you care, u'll be hurt. true.

My Top 10 Resolutions

2012-01-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

I am a greedy freak. I've a list of top 10 resolutions to be fulfilled this year.

1. To explore every possibility with the resources given.
2. To practice counselling skills learned
3. To improve my training skills for students
4. To understand the market for development programme
5. To continue to spead the seeds of love to the less fortunate
6. To understand the financial status and to capitalize it.
7. To do something special and extra beyond working zone
8. To be independent and to learn up more new things.
9. To know God, seek God and trust God through his Words.
10. To love and be loved.

Hey 2012!

2012-01-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

The year 2011 travels like the speed of light. I do not remember when I really stopped and caught a good breath. All I knew was time flies :D Lotsa changes happened in 2011. It was a good change for me somehow. Physically changed to an environment which I am happily staying now :) Accepted God a day before Easter and accepted Him as the heavenly Father. God is so good because He hears me, my prayers and He guided me without fail. 2011 was also a special ones where by study journey began. I can't say it was perfectly easy, neither was it a hard one. All i can say is it has been a hectic ones :) Got the chance to travel to Krabi, an island that i would want to revisit if i could. Many people had passed by my life that left a heavy footprint. Those life angels that came to my life was indeed the greatest blessing that i could ever ask for.

Thank you Lord for everything, for my family, for my great friends, for the colleagues and for everyone around me. It is YOU, YOU and YOU that made my 2011 a worthy year to live in. =)

SDCU Retreat 2011

2011-12-22T14:06:00.006+08:00

It's SDCU Retreat for real! =) It was an interesting gathering with... insects, animals and jungle for 3 days 2 nights! Haha! =) Managed to see fireflies that lit the jungle like christmas tree :) It was indeed a greater one as compared to the previous round when i went. Nevertheless, the fee has increased drastically. -_-"

The six of us that made up the firefly trip to RM 90 @_@"

For your info, we didn't even bathe when we reached on Friday night.
We went straight for firefly! Check out the t-shirt we wore o_O"

虾膏饭 in the morning market in Pasir Penanmbang! :)
Yum! with the sambal!

Actually, i quite like Firefly Park Resort :)

Then, we headed to Sekinchan, around 1/2 hour drive from Kuala Selangor :) So, finally we got to see the real paddy field :) Love the greens and the sky! It was scorching hot but the sky somehow filled with bit and pieces of gloomy clouds :)

Very first group photo =)
It's quite challenging for a short hand person to snap a group of six.

Then, we headed to Fish Village :) Nth special but smelly.

We never felt a single second of hunger. Kept on feeding ourselves with good food. Lunch was covered with seafood, eg, shark porridge (plain soup and spicy styles)

Very interesting dish: Spicy fried shrimps! Fresh!

Kung bo Sotong! :D Yummy!

Big kid (Amy) was playing bubbles :)
Fatt Mee bought us bubble stick for this trip purpose!

We went to Bukit Malawati in Kuala Selangor in the evening after the rain :)

Met many of our ancestors in black and brown. Mostly in blacks :D

Lighthouse on the hill- Historical heritage

Have you seen Malaysian version of Spice Girls? Here they are... XD

I like this group photo lots :)

It was windy and happy.

Then, we headed to Jeram for Ikan Bakar, namely Aroma Ikan Bakar. It is a huge place to makan ikan bakar, operated by malays. Very affordable to have seafood here.

On the last day morning, we had our own sharing session. On and off we did have our programme on our own for bonding purpose, which include self-discovery and get to know each other more. So, that particular morning, we shared our view on ourselves and our job. We also drew on the stones for each of us as a form of encouragement that never fade.

So concentrate except Ker Shin =X

Before heading back to KL, we went to Klang for Bakuteh. I must say this is the most delicious one by far. The dried and the soup ones :D

I believe it must be a momentous trip for me because it is our first time spending 3 days 2 nights together as a team out of office. More to come, i hope! :)

Krabi Island

2011-12-07T18:14:00.004+08:00

It was such a relaxing 5 days 4 nights trip to Krabi Island. It's amazing how we can make this trip an eventful one. I simply couldn't comprehend the blueness of the sea. I could see the contours of blues when i first reached the Monkey Island. We did many island hopping, visited numerous islands, did snorkeling, walking a lot in krabi, pacing on the soft sand, had tomyamful night for every dinner, went for night market for twice, jungle trekking visits and went to some interesting pool and hotspring.

In sum, if you're a nature lover, this can't never be any better place for you to step your feet onto it. You'll definately enjoy every bit of this island with warm hospitality from the thais. Unlike city downtown like Bangkok, if you are not opt for shopping, Krabi will be a great choice for you to relax just to see the blue and the greens :)

i was really excited to touch the sea. It was too blue.

very unique long-tailed boat in Krabi for island hopping purpose =)

We literally walked from island to island by our own feet. It was such a special phenomena where you get to WALK along the tiny beach route to another island in the middle of the ocean during low tide. Well, it's risky, but, i am back safely! =)

I thought i can only see this on tv -.-

We only managed to catch sunset everyday. Haha!

Emerald pool- it was a natural pool, the water... i donno why is it so greenish blue but it was from the mountain. (Jaw's dropped)

Our very first dish in Krabi- papaya salad.

mixture of papaya and other veggie, with shrimps and crabs. Interesting isn't it? :)

My lovely trip companion for this time.

It was really fun to be with them =)

A better quality of tut-tut in Krabi =)

Looked like a toy car to me.

i donno what's its name but it's very ver nice!

it's like a popiah skin with roasted sugar layers in it. You need to roll it on ur own =)

Ananta Burin Resort =)

Me likey!

the pool- no joke! It was so clean!

We bought this tee together- simply because we really love krabi and we left with quite some money. =D
I would want to go back to Krabi. Please call me =)

Watery Evening!

2011-12-07T18:13:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, life can be very very fun! It allows you to be crazy. It allows you to think out of the box. It also allows you to break the rules! :)

Celebrated Chyun Fang's first birthday in SDCU in a very very special way. The plot was set in such a great timing and everyone was so good in acting. Things were in order, even the throwing to the swimming pool part was great! (not the part that i was a victim, too).

It was the craziest one by far after Amy's. It's getting more and more "serious" in planning those sabotaged birthday. Now, i guess ppl are quite afraid their birthdays to come. Haha! Anyways, wish Chyun Fang have a superbly memorable birthday with water and us! :)

This photo was cut from the video. I actually requested a student to "record" this down for us but to cheat CF to take a group photo.

The teamwork was great! =)

Plan had a special outcome: me into the water -.-"

so did my phone :/

Then, we had a birthday dinner at Alexis after cleaning up ourselves.

She loves this cake lots =)

i do hope we all can celebrate more and more birthdays together =)

Chyun Fang loves fishballs, so, these 26 balls were for her because she turned 26! Haha!

appreciate the friendships a lot =)

Dr. Biles's Birthday

2011-12-07T18:12:00.006+08:00

Never in my life meeting such a kind and giving person. Dr. Biles is the very first person that i consider an angel from God. I knew her through working in UCSIU. Every year, she will come to Malaysia to spread her knowledge and experiences in term of counselling. Trust me, her schedule will be packed each time she touches down this land, filled with trainings, conferences, workshops and classes. Sometimes, listening to her, it's not so much with the position as a student-lecturer, but more so a mentor who guides us in a very different view in regards of counselling and life.

What's more, knowing her constraints and health, i felt the love even more because she made me understanding what is the word "sacrifice" and "humility". As an experienced person and a counsellor, she still bow down and learn from any individual whom she encounters with. Those precious opportunity spent with her was something we cherish the most.

This year round, we felt extremely honoured to be able to celebrate her 60th birthday with her and her other students/friends. What i can describe about her students is that they are a bunch of women with burning learning spirit because Dr. Biles is such a great motivator in everyone of them.

"You make me ME." was what she said during her birthday party. Again, her humility has taught me that no matter how good you are, how well-equipped you are, being humble is the greatest asset in human for us to continue to be a contributing individual. Dr. Biles, i wish you'll have a good year ahead and may God grant you with good health, great family and friends and give you blessing in any decision/action you do. =)

We blessed her with a huge birthday card and an iPad (this was a contribution from many many people who love her lots).

prayer from pastor to bless Dr. Biles during her birthday :) it was an emotional night for many of us because Dr. Biles has touched many lives in Malaysia.

Behold!

2011-11-30T17:38:00.003+08:00

Behold! I'll be back with posts of event when the streamyx is fixed and when my semester is over!

*blowing dust of 30cm thickness*

recency effect...

2011-10-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

Dear Father Lord,

I pray for a betterment- for my attitude, for my emotion and for my own management. I pray for inner peace and strength. I need a lot of strength through difficult moments and most importantly, i pray for wisdom and patience in completing the responsibilities ahead, be it as a staff or a student.

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Honestly speaking, sometimes i do face the difficulties to laugh my heart out because i am so occupied with stuffs and challenges. Funny how i know all of these will mould me to another level yet it seems like i failed to do so.

Lots of thoughts in my mind lately. Maybe i shall decipher them today one by one.

1. Respect- I find this virtue is such a significant essence for life. It doesn't matter whether you're younger or older than anyone, respect stays in a mutual relationship- love, family, friends and work. It remains as it is, just like God remains the greatest. For me, respect can be earned but respect can never reproduced by authority and status. Came across all sort of people in life, little did i know that i can face a person who plays external locus of control to that high that it can shoot up to heaven. Where is humility? Where is the care? Where is the considerate heart? I don't know. Big question for me to handle is "How will/can i respect this person?" There's no methodology to begin a respect but i've been questioning myself on HOW and doubting my attitude whether am i being a horrible person for thinking such way. But i guess, it's not up to me to do anything. As long as i am consciously clear, i am done! Well, it's just my thought.

2. Complaints- This topic was discussed over a ride with boss the other day. She questioned how can a person be blessed if he/she is filled with complaints? Hmmm, i find this quite true. I felt that we can always count the blessings rather than complaints. As a counsellor-to-be, i also have to consciously remind myself to cut down the complaints if possible. I need strength to work this out.

3. Emotion- i think i am in need to realign my emotion. Due to my personality, it flunctuates quite a lot. I don't wanna affect others. I wanna work within myself. That's why i feel, i need a lot of inner peace and learn to smile more.

4. Help- being in a helping profession, i guess the most important thing is to help out each other if possible (especially people within this beautiful field). I am so thankful to meet some very very helpful mentors who always share with us everything they can. I wish one day i'll be able to share my knowledge and experience to the juniors. It's a niche group- we ought to help each other.

a place called Batam

2011-10-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

A step to Batam this time round was fruitful. The fruitfulness wasn't about how fun was it, how much we spent and how good the trip was, but for me, honestly, it's the much insights that i've gained through my own eyes to look at the culture, the people and the place.

I see- poverty. The rich and the poor leave such a big gap within this little island. From one end you will see people eating ayam penyet in a restaurant, on the other end you see people sitting down by the streets to beg and most of them were cacat. I saw kids (who're supposed to have fun during their childhood) begged for money; I also witnessed a kid pulling a tray of buckets by her own lil hands. My heart sunk at that moment and i was in the bus.

During that split second, i thought i was so fortunate.

I see- the culture. The culture of selling stuff by the streets with this small cart. It's so small that probably only 3 ppl can stand comfortably to choose the goods. I see how visitors compared and bargained, as though the bags were not at the cheapest rate but for me it was already. I see competition among those vendors because they are selling almost the same thing. I got to see the batik too :) It was nicely done. To my dismay, the culture of smoking also quite frightening. Indons smoke anywhere, anytime. There's no designated place for smoker, not even a hotel lobby. There's no "NO SMOKING" signage at all! =x

I see- friendliness. I believe we always have stigma against indonesians due to the social issues. It's undeniable that they can be quite a nasty bunch but they are also simple version on their very own. They are friendly and humble. Most importantly, i feel they appreciate whatever they receive from us. I am thankful to our tourguide-Fendi who took care of us, especially in terms of our safety. Apparently locals are quite superb in snatching stuffs.

the chips were fresh! :)

I see- sacrifices. To us, eating up fire and glass, jumping over the fire ring are thrilling performance. When i look at them, i felt "What a sacrifice they have been doing all these while at no charge but to solely depend on the tips received..." I was truly amazed. I wonder was the stomach painful after that.

This trip to Batam made me love Malaysia in a broader sense where we're much developed and advance. At least I know we have food to eat, we have good bus to ride and we have a better living environment. Indonesians are friendly bunch. The service received was great and welcoming. The food was delicious yet affordable. Nevertheless, the security of this island will make me think twice for a revisitation. Thanks for all for this trip. Appreciate it. =)

friends

2011-10-15T22:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we don't really need a lot of friends. Quantity is not the matter anymore. What matters the most is the heart of a friend who stays no matter where we are, how well we've been or how good we are doing now.

Friend needs affirmation, not judgment, not criticism. Humility also plays a role because being humble and listen to friend is such a beautiful essence one could have. Instead, sometimes i do encounter people who raise up their so-called status and see highly on themselves. Or even, looking down on people around them, dispute on things that's ought or not ought to be.

For real... for real... deep down inside i wonder... what is the meaning of friendship to you and me? Sometimes, some incidents will allow you to see more and figure more. God, I pray for enlightment.

new hangout place

2011-10-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

Ever since i moved in, the pool seems to be a new attraction for me. Hehe! Well, at this moment, it is my new hangout place whenever i am free and feel like exercising! The swimming pool! Be it at night or day time :) I love to swim still. Today, i did it for 10 laps and i felt real contented. Should do more next round.

Just get changed and head down to the pool and dip in! =)

Creamy Wednesday

2011-10-02T17:04:00.004+08:00

It's been ages for such celebration to bump into the real world of ours! :) We're still young, come'on! :) It was Amy's birthday on last Wednesday, well, she's quite easily "planned". The surprise zoomed in quite fast. One moment we're at the stadium to gather all the partners in crime, the next moment we're at the apartment to begin the cream war surprise! :) I had fun! Though we need to spend a lot of time to clean up, but birthday was still the main focus of the night.

I think we had 2 rounds of smashing cream on her. Thanks to Hau Shen who acted so quickly in this. The fake cake just went off "PIAK" on her face like that :) Chun'ted! :) and to our surprise, she didn't expect the CREAM was the main lead of the night :D

2nd round of cream war was during the group photo. "How about to wear a cream crown?" Hehe! And oh boy, the war went off so crazily that some of them hid in my housemate's room and didn't dare to step out! Hahahahah!

The birthday queen!

Glad to have you both around in the house ;)

I can't comprehend why that night i was quite touched seeing everyone had fun with the party. I guess the bond that we have is increasing in a linear way :) I appreciate all of your friendships to me, not just a colleague but more like a playmate, a friend :)

I guess it was an unforgettable night for all of us :)) and we actually had "After-action-review"meeting at mamak for the crime team! ahhahaha! FUN!

Now, who doesn't want us to celebrate your birthday? :)

dream...

2011-10-02T16:51:00.000+08:00

Everybody has dream(s). Recently, i've been thinking about my dream, my plan for the future. Masters semester resume and the adrenaline rush had swung by again. It's time to readjust myself back to the eventful week with studies and work, and maybe some entertainment (i really mean, SOME) because i can't spend 24 hours per day without sleeping.

I love my yet-to-be profession, especially when i hear it from Dr. Tun (my lecturer who teaches individual counselling). Her inspiring words made me want to learn more and always be humble in learning. She always mention, "This is a skill class, if you missed it, you will miss it." Classes are like the life and death thingy, you might not know one day you'll need those skills that learned from class for those whose lives are at stake in your hand.

With her, I find this profession is so beautiful. Well, helping profession is always beautiful. In order to reach out to more people, I can't just stick at where i am now. Thus, at this moment, apart from learning and working, i hope i get to do extra learning by attending more training outside. Most importantly, i hope i have strong discipline for me to finish it strong.

I wish everyone has a dream to move and don't just stay here to wait, but to do something about it. Sometimes, all we need is to care about it. Most importantly, it is YOUR dream to fulfil, not OTHERS'.

National Counselling Conference 2011

2011-09-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

Been quite busy preparing National Counselling Conference :) Learnt a lot, thought quite some, everyday is still an eye-opener for me to hear from people.

Wish NCC to be a successful ending note for our year 2011 =)

Sign up with us or visit as at this web (click me).

Trinity: The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit

2011-09-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

This song is very comforting to me :) Hope you'll love this song too!

recently...

2011-09-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! :) It's Thursday night and it's a holiday tomorrow. Feel so good to be able to scribble something here and sit down just to have my own time. Will be a sleep-in day tomorrow without the worries of "eyes can't open!" or "forever tired"!

Anyway! :) Been picking up swimming back alive! :) Feel so good to be able to swim freely. When the whole body is inside the pool, i felt really free. There's no worries, there's nothing in mind but only to focus on your physical action and your breathing and the squarish pool. Been missing swimming for so long, long enough to have few strands of grey hair. Haha! :D

On and off, GSC seems to be quite a good friend to me. Guess watching movie is like my only entertainment. @_@ The Smurfs was so good! It was quite moving and humorous. Family-oriented kinda show can be quite interesting sometimes :)

And by the way! :) I have a new toy! Eh-hem, a borrowed toy, i mean :) Spongebob wishes to teman Orange and Whitey too :) He's the boss now! :D

Raya Break in KL

2011-09-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

Colleagues and i decided to do something crazy. We went to Putrajaya for night photoshooting and playing lanterns! Putrajaya never failed to amaze me though i've been here for quite some times. This time round, we managed to see an upgraded version of the bridge. The colours changed in few seconds. It's really interesting and colourful! :) We did some jumping shots.

Betty crowned the best shot for this bridge :)

colour changes

Humongous! :)

Then we headed to a few government buildings just to wander around and snap pics for 4 of us. It's such a pity that i forgot about the tripod. Then i realised there's this function in the camera (frame) that i never used before. Hmmm, nevertheless i still wished to get a hold of my camera and come back here to adjust the functions of the camera.

Serene and I- pattern liao-liao! :Dthis group pic was great! :)

Amy said she looks smaller behind me -_-" so profound wasn't it? and all my fat revealed! ROAR! Anyway, it's quite a great pic too! 温馨 :)

That night, the 3 of them looked really great in any of the photos taken with just the 3 of them.

so, we played lanterns too! :) Some kids came by to see tanglung :D

hehe the camwhore us :D

Serene brought us to this Mewah Club. It's located in the hilltop, houses swimming pool, tennis court, yoga place and a cafe. We chilled at the hill top during wee hour. Witnessed some fireworks. :) Nicey :)

Met Jaden boy at Boulevard Hotel :)
boy boy was a bit cranked, maybe it's the long journey from Penang.
aunties brought him to Toy R' Us! immediately after we came out, he zzz'ed! @_@Betty and i :D

It was very very eventful after i reached KL. @_@ I wonder where does my energy come from but i really thankful to my friends around who always teman me always. God bless everyone! :)

Singapore 100m Sprint! :)

2011-08-31T12:46:00.000+08:00

There we go :) The Merlion Island early in the morning. Well, i wasn't feeling that well on Monday- guess it's because my body knew i was heading to a stressful country where people run for their lives in the immigration. I got a culture shock. I never been to Singapore by bus, normally was by car. -_-" And there came the aunties and uncles ran for their lives just to get their passports verified. Omg. O_O Back in my mind, i was thinking was it the impact of the casino-$$?

grandma, cousin, aunts and uncle boarded on the same bus as us but different destinations in Sentosa.

Anyway, we bought an Underwater World package for that day. It was quite an disappointing one if we were to compare with Malaysia's. Nevertheless, the species were unique but it wasn't as huge as ours. When we asked "Do you have penguins here?", guess what the person said? "Miss, Singapore's weather can't accommodate penguins." I was like... "Oh I see..." -_-" I love the conveyor belt tunnel in Sg's Underwater. As for the types of fish, it's more or less the same. I still feel the service attitude needs to improve a lil :)

the anemone is sleeping comfortably. Very warm to see him sleeping like this :)
hehe! ever seen a cobra in the water? :)
obor-obor! :D

this is called the Rainbow Crab. Don't think it's edible =D

Then, we headed to Vivo City for shopping and makan. Hmmm... i love this Food Republic design :) Very bold and asian'ish! :)

Towards the evening, we headed back to Sentosa, to snap photos :)
This candy street is very pretty :) Sugar-rush! ^^

Candies!

Gigantic & majestic entrance of Universal Studio of Singapore ;)Universal Planet :D

Camwhore time :D

New profile pic? :)

All in all, i think it's a great family outing :) I feel, it doesn't really matter the place that we go, it matters when it's just with family members to spend some quality time together :)

2 Samuel 12

2011-08-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday service was refreshing. It talked about how David failed as a king and how he repented to God. I find this verse interesting. 2 Samuel 12: 4

"Now a traveler came to the rich man, but the rich man refrained from taking one of his sheep or cattle to prepare a meal for the traveler who had come to him. Instead, he took the ewe lamb that belonged to the poor man and prepared it for the one who had come to him."

I find this verse is so applicable in this modern era. The selfishness of man that always refrain one's to do something good. I had a relative who asked my parents to "try" to use the broken machine. The relative knew it's gonna break down soon and yet he still insisted them to try. In the end, the machine spoiled and they asked my parents to throw it on their own. This incident is vividly showing the selfishness of the men. Sometimes, out of the good will of people, we wanna help, but how does the world consist of people like this? It's like making use of your relative that has blood relation? o_O" this kinda extended family, i'll choose not to be bothered.

Pastor Daniel shared an analogy with us on Sunday- "The experiences of the chair". That chair resembles a few things in life: 1. The way we brought up; 2. The work life we have; 3. The church.

When we were young, we sat on the "chair" that's placed by family. Some family used to compare with us and somebody, some don't. Some always fight, some were peaceful and harmonious. What kind of family are you coming from? :) Family culture is very pivotal. It affects us in long term basis.

The 2nd "chair" would be the career. If u're coming from the type of family that always compare you with others; when you're a leader in the organization, u'll tend to give less compliment to your subordinates but more criticism and comparisons.

The 3rd "chair" would be in church. You might think that this is not good, that's not perfect, so, you hop and hop to many many churches. In fact, church has only one purpose- to worship and serve the only God with your heart.

I find these few stories have such a good linkage in life. The first chair is so important. We can determine the next generation with God's help. Thus, we ought to choose the values and cultures that are healthy and positive to create a better world.

Meal Coupons at Sweetree

2011-08-31T00:53:00.002+08:00

And so, we really went to this ramadhan buffet thingy. Purchased the coupon to dine in at this place called Sweetree. Hmmmm it's a very common msian-style of buffet with more malay choices of food. Well, it's not cuisine, but it's foooood. I don't quite recommend this place to all of you because i felt that the portion was a lil bit pathetic. Nevertheless, the boss is very very friendly! He's a Korean! :) Interesting, isn't it?

I thought this restaurant is quite a good place to hangout :) The decoration and the presentation was really goodie =) If only the food was that worthwhile... Anyway... we had a great time chit-chatting while eating. Haha! =) so yea, it's still considered as a good time spent! :)

Seeing at those below pics, you should know that the food wasn't that amazing to be posted as compared to human =D

A big pink panther :)

Dr. Biles & Ms. Eileen =)

2011-08-31T00:51:00.000+08:00

It was an inspiring night for all of us. The presence of Dr. Biles & Ms. Eileen was really superb! The analogy given by the both of them in terms of counselling was down to earth. To me, both of them are the angels from God sent. They came to Msia to share their knowledge with Malaysians. It's my first time meeting Ms. Eileen, she's an Italian, living in U.S. A crisis intervension expert, a music therapist, a good friend of Dr. Biles, a great counsellor and i love her learning attitude.

We met Dr. Biles for quite a few times, she's a respectful mentor of ours. :) Her spirit in spreading the seeds of love and knowledge really motivates me to elevate my mission in life. The selfless characteristic makes me feel that the world is indeed beautiful with people like her :) She is forever pleasant to me. Her hug really warmed me, just like a mummy to us. She has 9 children, mind u, only 2 are biological, the rest are adopted. I've got a shock when i heard that. We shall always share good things with others =) Never ever fail the essence of sharing :)

As a counsellor, far more often we concern a lot on the approach stated in the text. In our education, we're taught to have a counselling approach. That night was an eye-opener for me. Both the experts said approach is always the next thing as a counsellor. Being a counsellor, your hand is like a rope. When a person is in danger, you throw the rope to the person and grab that person out. Just like your best friend, what he/she needs is very simple. Our best friend simply needs our ears and heart. Isn't it simple and precise? Same goes to the r'ship with client and counsellor. Client wants a listening ears and a truthful heart.

Supposed to be a formal discussion on the upcoming National Counselling Conference and research discussion, we ended up listening and sharing of experiences :)

so, we went for a good dinner that night with the both of them :)

a group pic with all of us at wee hour :) almost 12am @_@" and we gotta work the next day too O_O so happening right...

Self-discovery & Enrichment Workshop

2011-08-31T00:15:00.003+08:00

Everyone deserves a chance to speak and express. I believe this workshop has reached the climax of the year. Exploration of life journey can be interesting yet distressing at the same time. It's really depending on an individual willingness to open the heart and share with others. We're glad that these bunch of peeps are really dare to share.

Past, present and future, which one do you prefer? For me, i love all of 'em. Yes, i believe we shall move on in life, but it's not meant for u to waste your past. We ought to pick up some good lessons from the past, well, we all always learn a hard lesson then only will realise it was actually a good lesson. That's.. us. Of course, we shall grab our present because we may not know when an opportunity may just slip away! :) Oh yes, we shall also look forward to the future! :)

Like i just mentioned, sharing of life journey is never an easy task for some of us. Being a facilitator in this counselling related workshop, i felt awesome. It's great to be a company to the students, to just listen and be empathetic. To me, i still feel that i've gained so much of blessings from people around me. I love my life and i appreciate the journey that i've gone through :)

thank you, guys :) You all made this workshop worthwhile :)

Tree of Life: a very good tool for exploration purpose

a very thoughtful gift to the participants: self-drawn stones :) with some motivational purpose behind :)

the booklet

my group members :) thank you for opening your heart to us =)
i learned a lot through the workshop even though i'm a staff :) I guess the impact could be bigger if we conduct the session in the camp! =)

May's Birthday :)

2011-08-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

First time using macaroons as birthday tool, replacing cake! :) It's quite precious lil 6 biscuits... very very special for me. Haha! Anyway, it's not my birthday, so, it's alright =)

Well, we sort of planning May's birthday, but in the end, due to her unnecessary intelligence (sometimes it's non-applicable), she had quite a wild guess of her birthday. Mission half-passed, half-failed. O_O" I guess macaroons as cake was quite a good surprise! :)) Thank you all for the effort! =)

just like macaroons, the 6 of us also were quite colourful without our knowledge... haha!

the ever-cheerful and respected leader and friend of mine :)
wish you have a great birthday
God bless you abundantly :)

why give?

2011-08-20T00:13:00.004+08:00

The other day, we were having some counselling related training. It was such a great session that each of us got the chance to do some self-discovery :)

During my turn, i mentioned to spread the seed of love to my surrounding because i've been given enuff to people around me. I wish i can give as well. Question arise. "Since you've received abundantly, what makes you to give?"

At that split sec, only 1 sentence came to mind. "Simply because there are people around me who're lacking still."

I must thank God for His grace and mercy. I always receive tonnes of loves from people around me. Everytime when i see people who's lacking, I always think I've had enough. It's time to give your love out for people to share. One thing i must learn and reiterate will be my thought of repayment. Sometimes, love is not meant to be repay. In this context of love, it's a vast operational definition. It can mean a lot of things to me. Thank you God for giving me a lil heart, that always auto-count the blessings that i've received. One day, i must give out to the community no matter what.

Today, i saw a pair of old couple, walking at a side of the main road, very very slowly. I was driving and i thought how come an old man was holding the hand of the kid (but can't see the head). I was shocked to see, actually, the hand that he was holding was actually a hand of an old lady who had a hunchback that close to 45 degree. My heart was drenched at that moment. That grandma's head was tilted in front with her back faced flat towards the sky. I felt so sad for her and for her loving man. I pray that they're ok. I pray that God gives them a longer life, for them to spend time with each other.this tree will matter a lot one day :)

Later in the evening, some men came over to my house to mow the lawn. There were 3 men- a local and 2 international guys- labours. The worker was about to start the mowing machine, that boss smacked him coz he did wrongly. I was thinking to myself, we're all adult, why do we have to hit or scold? Is it very difficult to just teach? It's just the steps and instructions that matter. Physically smack a person was so childish. The more i witnessed this, the more i felt how important it is to educate our generation the value of courtesy. Be courteous to people. Keep a positive attitude to treat people.

Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7)

Sunday Service: I Stand in the Awe of You

2011-08-16T00:34:00.004+08:00

A powerful song during Sunday Service.

It made me raised up my hand and honoured You.

split personality

2011-08-12T00:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, it's great that we can gather together, just to have some moments of insanity. I appreciate my team a lot, they're the one who pull me through thick and thin (when i said thick and thin, it really means it). What's more to say besides I LOVE YOU ALL? :)

Like i said, counsellor is also a human being :)

don't you think sometimes a bouncer-looking counsellor are also quite stylish?
From right to left:
Fatt Mee: the most gentle counsellor ever, transform to be a "gentle bouncer" as well.
Chyun Fang: the naughty ones also look quite evil with this look.
Ker Shin: People asked her to look like bouncer, she did her own modeling pulak!
Amy: We can only label her the typical "BIG SISTA!"
May: We said, you're like a serial killer that kills the lens!
Shan Na: They said, i'm like the coward type who only dare to act cocky but not daring to do!

attitude in us

2011-08-12T00:06:00.002+08:00

People don't care how much you know until they know how much you care.

John C. Maxwell

Been reading about the "The Winning Attitude" by John C. Maxwell. I find his piece of work is really wonderful. It's ever simple and precise with many applications to serve as a reference in life.

In my sphere of life, i find attitude is the biggest chunk of life that will eventually build you or kill you. Imagine you have the most brilliant brain on earth but you never own a willing-heart to learn more, you're nothing from where you stand- be it past, presense or future. Positive attitude will bring you to a higher end.

One of the chapters in this book shared about adult acceptance/affirmation. "God demonstrates His own love towards us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8)". Acceptance and affirmation are something that we, Malaysian are lacking of in life, especially working life. A friend told me the company never give praise if the event was greatly conducted, all they did were to give "feedback".

Maxwell shared this: Long before we understand teaching we reach out for understand; Long after we have forgotten the teachings we remember the feeling of acceptance or rejection. Most children's psychological problems risen from their lack of acceptance and affirmation from parents/peers. At times, we paid so much attention to what we will EARN, instead of what we will LEARN. With the "L" on, it makes so much of difference.

I wish i have a good attitude. I am praying for that. Father Lord, I want to change some of my negative attitude. I wanna sit down quietly and pray about it. I want to find more joy in what I do. I want to work under a positive attitude by increasing my understanding and acceptance towards my peers. I want to be a listening ear and giving constructive comments. Amen.

Still

2011-07-31T21:39:00.001+08:00

Hide me now; Under your wings

Cover me within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise, the thunders roar

i will soar with you above the storm

Father you are King over the flood

I will be still know you are the God.

I rest my soul; in Christ alone

Know his power, in quietness and trust

x Chorus

Give thanks 感恩

2011-07-25T21:31:00.004+08:00

爸爸&妈咪，相信神原来是一件很开心的事。很多时候，我们都不明白这种感觉，因为只有亲身体会到的时候，才会去相信那份感觉。我希望有一天，你和妈咪都能够体会到那种感觉，就好像在我四月二十三号晚上体会到的一种推动力。我希望有一天，我们能全家一起祈祷，让神再次感动我们，让祂带领我们，让我们的家更有凝聚力，更有爱，更有神的爱，更有安宁的心。

这几晚的我和妹妹，都在为家人祷告，希望一切都能顺心。有时，很多事情可能我们没办法解决，我们让祂帮我们安排吧~

希望你们会读到我这篇部落。
我今天很感恩，因为爸爸说他想要个信仰 :)
祷告回应了！

感谢您。
amen :)

John 15: 12-17

2011-07-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what i command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that i learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but i chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit- fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other."

Today's sermon is kinda interesting. Ps. Andrew shared about friends of Jesus. He's really a very kind and friendly man. He'll intro his name and shake hand with you, then ask for your name. The message that he's got for us today somehow spoke to me:

1. Make friends out of LOVE

2. Make friends intentionally

3. Make friends to motivates Evangelism

As i reflected upon his words, i can honestly say i only fulfill 1/3 which is, I make friends out of love. I believe it's so right that we ought to cultivate a friendship with a sincere love for others. If not, why do we need a friend?

He added, when people love one another, a friendship is born. Mutual understanding and love are so important. As a Christian, we need to intentionally make friends, to allow new friends to feel comfortable and welcome with our presence. All in all, I'm a friend of God, you're a friend of God, we are the friends of God :) I'm learning still. Continue to pray for blessings and guidance in this. At least at this moment, i truly appreciate my close friends who are the huge blessings that given by God :)

believer

2011-07-23T22:29:00.001+08:00

I've been wanting to share this last week, but too many things happened in a week, too brain consuming, therefore, hardly have the inspiration and mood to pendown something here :)

Anyway, it's a message that i heard from church invited speaker the other day. This pastor is a chinese, i believe he also understands very much what a chinese will think, how's the mentality and all in this community.

He shared with us this message. It's said that people only choose christianity, choose to believe God when things happen. Disastrous thing to be exact. Previously, I also heard from others that, christians comes to you when you're at your weakest point of life. When you're super sick, you seek for god(s). When you're poor, you pray for wealth stuff like that.

I always wonder, why we, chinese can be that selfish? It's nth about religion here, but it's the culture that we've brought into. Why are we so selfish? When do we wanna give ourselves a change? My mum used to tell me we need to 还神 when we receive good thing. It's just like how a pastor will tell u to praise God in prayer for all the blessings that you've received. I could agree no more. We seriously need to learn how to praise Lord. He protects us when our lives are at stake. He plans for us to go through difficulties with strength. If we can go through all these, we should thank Him for all these. Not only to think about our own welfare, we gotta think of His words too. When we receive thing, we shld say thank you. That's very common and that will be common when it comes to spirituality too.

I'm grateful that i choose to be a believer at this period of time when i am ready. It's not a period whereby i NEED him, but it's a period i WANT to be with Him. I hope i can continue to uphold this spirit :)

everyone has a story to tell

2011-07-19T22:48:00.001+08:00

I believe everyone of us will definately have our story to tell. Every day makes an episode. It can be a happy ending, it can be a unsatisfactory ending. Nevertheless, we shall never give up in life because i believe everyone of us will be able to create a beautiful ending. Pray to God for a new beginning when we fall; praise God when we lead an ideal and positive life.

At times, one's family background can really influence the way we act and react, the way we perceive thing, we receive and give things. However, i believe it's through understanding that we then receive acceptance on one another. Remember, understanding is much much more important than tolerating. :)

Just wanna share a song to all of you, it's indeed a very motivational song:

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wonder if i'd ever healed again

Oooh just like all the seasons
Never stay the same
All around me i can feel the change

Chorus:
I will break the chain to find me
Happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know i can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And i've learnt how to leave it where it is
And i see that i was wrong
For ever doubting i could win

Oooh just like all the season
Never stayed the same
All around me i can feel the change

x Chorus

Life's too short to have regrets
So i'm learning now to leave it in the past, and try to forget
We only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

x Chorus

No matter what, i will always love my family because they bring me to this world :)

Luke 6: 32-36 Love your Enemies

2011-07-17T18:37:00.000+08:00

"If you love only the people who love you, why should you receive a blessing? Even sinners love those who love them! And if you do good only to those who do good to you, why should you receive a blessing? Even sinners do that! And if you lend only to those from whom you hope to get it back, why should you receive a blessing? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount! No! Love your enemies and do good to them; lend and expect nothing back. You will then have a great reward, and you will be children of the Most High God. For he is good to the ungrateful and the wicked. Be merciful just as your Father is merciful."

Was reading this during one of the reading nights. Came across with the verses that caught my eyes so much. I was thinking to myself at that juncture. Why am i being so selective in life? As in, i will only love those who sincerely love me, be it friends or family members and i will give more to those who love me. After reading this, I think i'm very much a sinner. =X Thus, I will set this reminder, to be gracious to people, to be a merciful person. It'll be a struggle, I pray to God that He will walk this journey with me. To let me walk into people's life without a selective heart.

Yes, i was right in the beginning that counting a blessing is very important. I always count things that i've received, all the good things. BUT! What did i do? What have i done so far... that matters so much to my surrounding, or to just myself? Guess sometime, we just don't stop and think. We use so much of our brain that at times, will hurt our surrounding. Our actions and words (from brain) sometimes can be unintentional, but it's always a hard truth that it'll hurt people.

I love the tagline of Ignite Community Church (ICC)- a hospital for sinner, not a museum for saints. We are imperfect, we go to church as a sinner, to repent our sins to God for us to be a better person. Continue to go to church people, you'll realise one day that your relationship with God is so wonderful, for you be able to spread this love to others as well, including your enemy :)

Freshman Camp: School of Medicine

2011-07-12T23:25:00.001+08:00

Oh yes, i'm not promoting again about UCSI University Terengganu Campus, but here we were again, headed back to KT for Freshman Camp for the School of Medicine. Donno why, i was really looking forward to this camp even though i'm not the direct liaison in this camp. For me, i feel Freshman Camp has achieved a certain level of fame. At least, i know that when we mentioned about this camp, it has became a known instead of unknown. Nothing to brag about, it's just that sometimes, in my opinion, it just take everyone's effort to make things happen, it's a matter of who want to start first. Looking forward to my new dream! :)

this time round, it's the 4 of us. Two advisors, two speakers :)

I have to tell you.

This bunch of kids really make me feel so proud of them- the student committee! :) What's more, they were never a friend before, but now they're like superb close friend after a camp.

Their ever humble learning attitude, their teamwork and spirit, happened miraculously within a month by God's grace! :)) A great team to develop, be it now or future!

I always think, ATTITUDE is the best antidote for anything.

Campers had to cook ikan geli :) cut raw! burn it with their own set fire, and each to have a bite! :)

campers at the beach! :) It was the highlight of the camp! =)

my scholarship student who promotes UCSIU so much- the University, the Experience! :) Haha! I'm very proud to see her coming thus far :)

Front view of T'ganu Campus.

All in all, i must say this camp was a great success. Although campers could be quite nasty, could be slightly cocky than usual, but still, everyone managed to pull it thru! :) I must say, the learning spirit, the commitment really made this huge success. Encouragement to the team is also a MUST because all in all, we all need some emotional pumps! :)

understanding

2011-06-28T21:31:00.005+08:00

Understanding people, to some, seems like the most difficult thing ever. It's like worse than having constipation. *wink* When i started working, this part of me seems to be activated, as in, it never came to my mind that this element has turned out to be a conscious "source" in me.

Understanding people is a virtue to me. It takes a long period of time. Often, we always have that pair of judgmental eyes. Seeing a person without a smile on the face, we said he/she is snobbish and unfriendly. As time goes by, then we'll realise "eh, not bad actually. This fella is quite funny and caring." Through experience, be it good or bad, we earn/lose that person.

Sometimes, before having a thorough understanding, it's advisable that we just keep our mouth shut before our words start to label people. I have to admit, im quite sucks at that :) because i have a big mouth :D I need to listen to people than talking. So, please, if next time i really talk a lot, please say "Ng Shan Na, shut up." :) Consciouly, gotta tell myself that. Being critical to people isn't a good thing to be brag about. Amen? :)

Great day, peeps :)

my energizer

2011-06-26T21:12:00.010+08:00

Going back to hometown, my time is always dedicated to family and friends. I believe they're the ultimate energizer of my life. Going back home is all about resting, putting work aside and to solely focus on memory recollection and updates :) It's great to be able to catch up with some friends, though the moment was short, but it was good enough for me :) Looking forward to other opportunities by any means! :D

Finally, get to see Ern :)

my sis, cousin and ern at Old Taste

the cousin gang :) Thanks Dear for the bookmark :) Donno why, it gives me a peaceful sign :)

I think i need that very much! :D

met Mei and Yeekiat for a quick breakfast on Sunday morning :)) Really missing those crazy form 6 days with them :) Met Yuanhui and girlgirl. We brought Wanxin out for yoghurt ice cream! She was thrilled! :) So am i! haha! This lovely girl gave me 2 kisses on that day :) felt so loved! =D such a cheerful lil girl :) oooo? Where is my ice cream? :)

Footprints- Margaret F. Powers @1964

2011-06-26T19:07:00.004+08:00

One night i dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed
scenes from my life.
For each scene, i noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life
shot before me I looked back
at the footprints in the sand.

There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and i questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, You told me
when i decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during
the most troublesome times of my life
there's only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why,
when i needed You most, You leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints
it was then that i carried you."

This message surprised me a lot. :) It was a bookmark given by amy. Thought it was nothing much but it strikes me a lot when i read. :)

makan and celebration!

2011-06-26T18:42:00.002+08:00

That day was a special day. A day of deceiving, a day of acting, a day of laughter, a day of gastronomic endeavour! :) I guess after so long, it's our first meal together as a team. Wow, it's like ages. @_@" I would say things are getting pretty interesting with the 6 of us. Everyone is unique in her own way. Hehe! Despite all the hectic schedule, everyone still made time for the dinner that night. :) It was definately great to have you guys around! =)

And of course, we had a motive behind the dinner. Celebrated Fatt Mee's birthday. Hmmm donno whether was it a suprise but we definately had lots of fun due to our narcissism = shiok sendiri act. We predicted and acted Fatt Mee. Haha! She's such a great counsellor :)) Blessed to have her in our team. The ever loving one will always being bullied by me! Muahaha! :))

so, inilah kami :)

inilah Fatt Mee aka 肥面 :) Haha!

a nickname that used to tease her :P
the cake- which was melted due to a late dinner

ooo, and these were our dishes of the night!!!

More to come, girls? :)

my yellow room :)

2011-06-12T16:11:00.002+08:00

As what i've mentioned before, i've shifted to a new place :) Quite love my room condition now. It's quiet, and less dust as compared to before. Here i am, back to the single bed. The room now is yellow themed. Haha! :) It's just a coincidence that things that i have are in yellow, so does my surname: 黄. Hehe! :)

I have my wardrobe given by previous housemate. My bed, my study table and the rack/shelf. So, everything seems ok. Though the area of the room wasn't as big as last time, but it's more than enough for me :) Shall not buy more things, if not, shifting isn't as easy as it seems. Just a quick sneak peek for my room! :)

yay? :)

No pain, no gain.

2011-06-12T15:30:00.001+08:00

Today after the sermon, i am so determined to scribble something here in the blog. The message was so strong and meaningful. It was on 1 Samuel 18-19 in the scripture. Pastor message was about "No pain no gain". It was mentioned how David was pulling through the struggle with God in him. He chose to escape rather that retaliate. Just like how an enemy has arrived, he did not choose to kill. Often at times, when something decides to happen without our knowledge, especially when bad days strike, meeting with bad people so to speak, we mourn, we complain, we shout. When things got better, we rarely give thanks. If you're in the journey with God, we'll soon realise the struggles that we pull through with strong determination, it's a process of growing. I agreed with what pastor said "wilderness will derive our character". Character is always seen when we tend to solve an issue. Don't take wilderness as the judgment from God, it is actually the will of God for us to go through something in order to grow internally, and i believe it's also a way for us to grow spiritually with Him as our guide. Struggles are good, although most of the time it's hard. Nobody will love struggles. Everyone yearns to live a simple problem-free life. To me, i can guarantee that, it's through difficulties, we find victory. Just like how we always practise badminton, we won the medal and we feel the victorious touch! :) Whatever it is, we ought to give thanks to God.Sometimes, we always aim for big picture, or even bigger picture. We are being taught to think far, to think further! As huge as a dream, as beautiful as it is. We forget about HOW we achieve that. We bypass lots of mini steps of achievement. As much as we want that, we'll still forget that it;s the lil lil steps that we pave to reach the point of excellence! It's good that we always strive for a good result, it's even better to strive for excellence, but it's a no-no to strive for perfection. We are not perfectionist, neither you nor me. If we get to strive till excellence, we're considered a good man. Continue with the excellence. None of us can fulfill anyone's "perfection".

I've decided to post a blog if i can, everytime after Sunday service. It always bring a lot of messages through my mine :)

Counselling

2011-06-11T21:15:00.004+08:00

Theories are always the solely thing we learn back in our education system, especially during primary-secondary schools. As we reached University level, apart from theories, praticality of each theory is emphasized. As of now, studying Masters is another level. Apart from learning theories in a deeper manner, we practise skills too.

Tried counselling for once and i felt i am still in the amateur stage. Im glad that there're people around me to give me lots of guidance. It's always a blink of enlightment when there's some advices given from left to right, top to bottom. Really appreciate it :)

Counselling is a very special field. It requires more than just giving a change of life but it has gotta do with our own attitude in counselling. As a counsellor, the first important feature is to be patient. It takes more than a second to let a person to realise a thing in life. If client is stubborn, will you give up just like that? @_@ But here's another thing about counselling, things don't come on your way all the time because counselling is not about ME, but it's all about the choice of the clients. What's more, counselling requires a lot of love about people. If we don't have thought for people, i guess we might want to think about venturing to other field.

This is something that hit me hard the other day "Shan Na, counselling is not about yourself, it's all about the client." I'm glad that i finally tried something new for this year. Part of the resolution achieved? :)While doing counselling, i believe for me, doing development programme is my energizer. I am a kinaesthetic person. I love to move around. I like to interact with students, and most importantly, i like to develop students. I'll feel extremely happy to see students grow from level to level :) In education field, it's not just about academic but it's about students' well-being. I would want them to develop with moral value, with great character, with positive attitudes! That's how powerful is for us to start a "change" in generation.

Summer Escape!

2011-06-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

It's glad that friends come by and hangout together :) Especially friends whom you longed to see and yet chances are so slim :) I am very thankful that they came by and to do some simple catch-up together. Often times, i feel very proud of my friends, it's been such a great journey since secondary school and we're still maintaining the relationship. The care and love are the elements that we uphold since then i supposed? :)

We cracked our heads to think of a place to hangout. Mall isn't a good place because shopping isn't the main criteria for us. It was real hot. "Genting" was blurted randomly and off we went. @_@" Drove to the mid of the hill and took cable car up! :) It's been real long. The weather was just perfect! =) Breezing cool air with great companions! What's more to complaint? :)

this is my curse of Genting. I puked... again.

Group photo before we left outdoor activities :)Celebrated soofei's birthday :) cute heart-shaped Baskin Robbins :) It's been so long since we celebrated birthday together. I miss my birthday with you girls lot.Photo edited by Siew Ping :) Love it

Thanks to our friend who is working in Genting, we enjoy meals and fun with half-priced rate! :) Hehe! Minimum spending, maximum enjoyment! =) Drove back home late at night, thank God we reached safely. Spent our one last day- Sunday with dimsum and coffee at Midvalley before they set-off to Singapore :)

Till then!

By the way, it's dated way back in early of May =)

simple

2011-06-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, life can fill you abundantly by the blessing of God. It takes such a simple gesture to create a meaningful life. At times, life without expectation gives you a lil bonus of happiness. As simple as it is, as easy as life goes on. Sometimes, while i reflect upon it, i can feel the sense of contentment. As i always do, count the blessings of each day received, optimism will lead a positive life.

As title of today, i name today as a day of simplistic motion. Came back to Kluang to accompany my family. All we did was to get together and have a good meal. I always look forward each time when i am home. This time, grandma was in the picture. Exuberance strikes high :) I always wish to have a proper meal with grandma. Today was indeed a bonus day. An exercise through shopping after meal with family was another simple happiness too. Through seeing new stuff and to shop for necessities and to discuss over it, it's just marvellous.

It's a day that i shall give thanks to God. Simple gestures make life seems much easier. God made my family stronger and stronger each day and make us treasure each other. I am thankful for all the wondrous blessing you have shone on me :) Thank God for my family.

i have shifted! :)

2011-05-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

Finally, i had made up my mind, to shift and to get out from Cheras. The place that i'm staying now is very quiet. Had been wanting to move away from student area to catch some breather. Oh well, i've done that with God's grace. :) Was searching for so long but it just doesn't seem to have one. When i did not search for it, here comes the available one :) Isn't it just a miracle? :)

Freshman Camp 3

2011-05-30T22:58:00.002+08:00

Moving to its 3rd count, i believe Freshman Camp had been expanded to certain level. Wishing Freshman Camp can be a continuous, never ending event for the University :) Whatever it is, every event will definately has its room for improvement. It's never the best, but it's never the worst! :)

It is the first daring move to shoot up to Kuala Terengganu campus to hold this event. Lots of challenges faced but everyone still able to brace themselves up =)

It's happy to see the camp is growing :)

one of the most attractive reasons of coming to KT is the beautiful beaches and the ever blueish sea that stay in this ever peaceful state.

mini lil cowy card

2011-05-04T22:01:00.001+08:00

It's a pleasant surprise early in the morning :) Appreciate it.

Thank you for the message, it means a lot to me.

Really thankful.

*hugs*

Ocean will Part

2011-05-04T00:12:00.004+08:00

If my heart has grown old
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

When i'm blind to my way
There Your spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Ocean will part, nations come
At the whisper of your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life, Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As you open my eyes to the work of Your hand

And my heart will find praise
I'll delight in Your way
As you open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As you open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Breaking Walls Buidling Bridges

2011-05-02T16:24:00.000+08:00

It was a fine Friday! :D Attended the facilitators' preparatory session of Breaking Walls Building Bridges. It would say it was an eye opener for me to view this documentary- it portrays how Christianity and Islam's leaders (imam and pastor) come together to create an inter-faith centre to unite people in Nigeria. It was indeed a great experience for me, to enhance my knowledge on religion and how religion brings love and understanding eventually despite of many many differences.

It is definately a great awareness that every Malaysian shall learn. For me, i always believe religion brings good teaching, promotes love and peace in the community and most importantly, it brings us together, to believe and to have the faith in God, any God in this context. Sometimes i do wonder, if we were to be a great follower of faith, why do we still fight? I mean, war happened because of religion issue, why? Aren't we supposed to learn how God treat people?

It is also crucial for us to respect one's religion, not to insult any religion and not to push people to the corner to believe your faith. It is always a "call". A call for you to step forward and to believe in it, to follow the words and message in any religion. It is the same across different religions. Mindset of the follower makes a huge difference.

Anyway, it was a great session! Thank you for the speakers who dare to make the first move to create such awareness to our country :) Thanks Dr. Hamidah (a muslim) and Patricia (a christian) for your information :)

我的

2011-04-30T00:15:00.004+08:00

哪怕就只是影响一个人
就那么一个人
我都是知足的
因为我知道有一天
我会慢慢引导更多需要帮助的人 :)

生命是有影响力的
因为在你的生命里
不只是自己
可是还有身边的人与事

相信美丽的开始，总会有美好的结束
我爱我为人的力量
加油！

Religion

2011-04-27T22:44:00.007+08:00

Thank you to all my sisters and the message :)

Religion, to me, it had been an empty shell.

I couldn't recall when. When was the time that i felt, i was empty of soul. I was not empty because i don't have love but i was empty because i do not own a religion.

I've been striving hard for things around me, but not a relationship with any God. I am afraid of commitment first thing, then i am afraid i can't be a good follower. I wasn't taught over a religion apart from bits and bits from education background. Friend was right, i have been an observer.

The words written by Nicky Gumbel were right.

"You and I were created to live in a relationship with God". Until we find that relationship there will always be something missing in our lives, thus we often aware of a gap.

This sentense quoted strikes me. Sometimes, He seems so near and yet so far. Then i realised, it is not about Him, it is me.

I am glad. At least right now, I know where should i head to. At least, i've taken a leap of faith :)

Don't you think so?

Dear Father, enlighten me with your words, guide the new-me to understand your every message behind and i pray to walk through this journey with Your presence.

Happy Birthday, Mummy!

2011-04-24T23:52:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dearest Mummy!

May you be healthy always
be happy always

be joyful always

Thank you for being a great mum throughout the years.

For all the sacrifises that u've made

For all the days and nights u've put up for us

For all the love that u've given

It's simply priceless

You're the greatest woman on earth :)

我爱你 Mummy！:)

a special day for me :)

2011-04-24T23:29:00.005+08:00

A week of sugar rush? :)

I would say this is the most special Easter i've ever experienced.

It is special to me because I have made my commitment to God.

It is special because I chose to believe in Him.

It is special because it was my first Easter Sunday as a Christian.

It is special because there are friends around me who've been encouraging.

It is special because my important people were around me during that defining moment and they were so crazy over this decision of mine.

It is important because I will start to grow this relationship with Him :)

I thank God for all.

For all the greatness I've received.

For all the joy i've shared.

and I pray that i'll continue to grow and know You more :)

amen :D

special commitment in life

2011-04-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

Im home. Yes, i am. Kluang i mean :)

Sitting in front of the comp, i realised, it's been so long since i sat down quietly at home, to look at this blogger browser, and start my brain engine for a different function.

Had a good chat with a friend today. I am happy to have a heart to heart talk with friends. That's also when i realised, since when i prefer a one-to-one session. I used to be very bubbly in my crowd, although i know i am still do, but, the intensity has reduced. So, we talked about many things today. Direction of life was the main dish of today's topic.

Having a long lasting friendship with someone is never a smooth sailing journey. It needs so much of effort and energy to pay the "maintenance" fee. *well, it's just a metaphor. I mentioned about to have someone to fall back to whenever i have trouble. I realise, each time, when life is challenging, I know i have my support back at home. I know who can i fall back to, i know where to get help, i know who to shout to for tension release purpose :) Each time, i feel blessed because i have friends around. I can't say family is negligible, but due to distance, friends are those i can fall back to.

For me, it is a commitment that i have in life. To me, friendship is a commitment. It's something that we have and we need to make an effort for it. It's a very special relationship. Some people might think it's not as imp as how i look at it but for me, there's just like a backbond in the body. However, I've been neglecting ppl in life due to this hectic schedule. I missed the moments tat my friends needed the most. I wasn't updated about my important friends. I am making a change. I am thinking for a resolution. I am learning to adjust. Give me some times. I am around still, until anyone decides to ask me to go. :)

Thanks for those who always being a support to me. Shan Na is thankful for all of these.

Destigmatising Mental Illness

2011-04-10T23:33:00.003+08:00

It's a very fruitful Sunday than sleeping like a log :) Attended a public forum on Destigmatising Mental Illness. Inspiring sharings from various types of people across different fields, from psychiatrics, psychologist, doctor to patients.

Mental health issues have been quite alarming recently in Malaysia. The awareness finally began and professionals are taking endless effort in educating the citizen. It's not something to be ashamed of. Often at times, we only will feel "eeeeeeew, this fella is crazy!" In this forum, we get to understand some misconceptions, whether it's science or non-science factors or how mental illness comes about.

One thing that i must mention in this is, social support from our surrounding is very important. Support group was repetitively and highly emphasized by the professionals. He asked "pls name me 5 of ur best friends in 20secs." No kidding, I can hardly spell my best friends on the paper. Why would I have such hesitation. Doctor was right, he said, we can never have 1 best friend. We need to find more, if not, 1 best friend decides to leave us and we'll be left with nobody and it'll cause depression. Haha! That's kinda true. What we gotta remember is, we're not living for anyone in this world. We're living for ourselves :) Even the whole decides to fall apart, we still have us! :)

What's more, 2 noble mothers took the floor with their experience sharing of the recovery journey from mental illness. Tears were struggling in my eyes, to listen to a single mother raises two children with mental illness all by herself. The tormenting 17 crazy years were shocking. Imagine, it's 17 years and right now, she's standing in front of everyone telling us how proud she is towards her children. So much of courage, so much of patience and preseverance. How wonderful God provided her, to sustain her with energy and strong will with the beliefs of never give up. We can't measure the love that our mother provided to us. We can't ever measure with a yardstick. No. This is called the unconditional love. Surprisingly, mothers never gave up on children that easily as compared to fathers. So many single mum in the forum today.

We never know how blessed we are until we listen to the stories of others and gaining insights from day to day. Together, we shall fight this stigma of mental health. It can be healed with our willing heart :)

right now...

2011-04-08T14:55:00.004+08:00

Right now, Project Management & Facilitation Training is on going among the students. It's nice to have students around, to discuss things over, to develop and sharing in certain skills/knowledge. My session was over. I'm here to write something because i realised it's been so long since i enter Scripts of My Life. =(

Guess my self-management isn't really that well after all. Letting out emotions and being detected by people have been apparent lately. Guess it's my "I" personality which is currently playing a role of being emotional and overly hyperactive/optimistic under a stressful situation.

I wish to be better in most of the things i do. I am not excelling anything in everything now. I am trying. Gimme some times :) Nothing special, just want to apologize on those whom i hurt.

Life has been good. God is good. I have most of the things i want in life. I am contented. Just because of being too contented doesn't mean you're good in everything you're in right now. Therefore, i guess it's the time for me to think about the change.

discipline

2011-03-27T16:51:00.002+08:00

When studies begin, the most essential value for you to keep in order to survive is... self discipline :) you've gotta make sure that you don't sleep over time if you've set a timer (but that doesn't refrain you from resting); gotta make sure that studies will be more of a priority than a movie; gotta make sure that studies also more of a priority than a casual window shopping during weekends. But then again, entertainment once a while can seriously boost one's energy because we're free from the so-called "stress".

I'm so looking forward to the semester break to gain my humanity's right. Haha! I miss shopping. Miss a random movie. Miss the casual random outing! Argggggh! :D Missing all these... missing friends and family too...

:) Love u all.

Imagine Me Without You

2011-03-21T21:04:00.002+08:00

A very nice song to share with you guys :)

Enjoy!

i'll be there...

2011-03-17T00:16:00.003+08:00

When you're in need, I'll be there for you.
Such a typical sentence right? Especially things happen within the circle of friends, we'll always say "I'll be there for you." Seriously, it's not easy. Easier said than done.

"Yes, i'll put my things aside, and be there for you..."

i am touched because i felt it. I am very thankful for what i've received.

home

2011-03-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

this is home, trully

where i know i must be

where my dream waits for me

where the river always flow

this is home, surely
as my senses tell me
this is where i won't be alone
for this is where i know it's home

for this where i know i'm home :)

heading home this Friday!

speaker

2011-03-06T09:55:00.002+08:00

Never ever i thot of, i'll be able to give workshop or talk or to lead any motivational form of event in my life. Never had i thot of, being a speaker, to educate and create awareness can be that fulfilling. Honestly, if you were to ask me, how's the process like, i can tell u, it's kinda draining the energy to read and do some research on it, but the end result, beautiful.

Started this journey of Development Programme in my first job was great. I just feel that i'm on my way to fulfill my mission in every single task that i do. It's great to be able to talk with students, be it high school's or uni's. The attention that the audiences had for me is just priceless sometimes. It's more than anything :) Apart from feeling fatique, the happiest thing for me is i've touched that amount of audience with my "chants" in the workshop.

Being a speaker, I always have the thought of myself "Meeting students in a workshop is like a touch & go system. It's important to catch their attention within that 1.5 or 2 hours of opportunity. It's never easy, but it's forever fulfilling because we never know at times, we do make an impact on one's life."

I like to talk to the youth. I like the response. I like the way they think and present. I like their dreams. I like the way they talk to me. I like the way they ask me for an opinion. All of these recharge me. No matter how tired i am, at the end of the day, I just felt everything is worthwhile. Youth is a very special target group which i hope to venture in. I hope i'll remain youthful too! :D Ok, that's not my point. Hmmm... i feel youth is a very crucial batch to build up a healthy nation. We might lack of this in the past, but it's time to build it for the future generation to upgrade themselve holistically :)

Past few weeks had been crazy and horredous for me. Juggling between work and studies, it's not easy but never tried never know. Been through a massive emotional rushed journey. Received a special report from a parent regarding the workshop that i went thru with the kids. Well, i just gotta say that parents are being over protective. In the end, the counsellor will always be the scapegoat. *claps* it's alright, I learned from mistake, lesson learned :) Thanks to the team for your support always, without you, I am nowhere from here.

I am walking towards my dream :)

and i am happy and positive about it.

Appreciation

2011-03-03T00:25:00.002+08:00

No matter how bumpy the journey can be, no matter how sucks the day I've been through, no matter how heart-wrenching can a case happen, I know I'm always blessed and loved by you three. Up until now, words are still beyond me, for all the love and support that i've received. Nothing else more can I say apart from thank you. You're my angels from God sent :) Dedicate this post to you, for me to remember a day which was important to me. 2 March 2011. For me to remember no matter how tough the day can be, i'll always have you to back me up, and stick with me as a team :) Bless you all. AMEN!

Brain Juicing!

2011-02-28T22:42:00.003+08:00

So much of thought which you don't really have time to pendown by yourself. Screen has turned out to be something official, hardly as personal as it used to be. I wish there'll be time for me to sit down and reflect on the things that i've done so far. So many things are not updated here in Scripts of My Life. *saddy* Sorry for the neglection.

I'll be back. I promise.

Just you wait! :)

My Spring Season with Family and Friends! :D

2011-02-26T00:17:00.004+08:00

I had a great great Chinese New Year this year round. Guess CNY is all about family and friends. If only the holidays can be slightly longer. I'm still glad that i get to accompany my family more this time round :) Apart from the social circle that we had during cny, we also had a lot of sumptuous food! Oh well, when we talk about chinese, we talk about food! :D haha! which we're quite proud of. *evil laugh with big belly

my family :)

Love this pic a lot

The first complete family group photo without grandpa ever since he left

we miss u :)

a friendship journey that lasts us for more than 13 years...

i'm thankful to have u :)

my form6 support! :)

miss u all... i wish next round we can have more friends together :)

the ever wonderful colleagues - reunion lunch of the 7th of cny :)

the council gang reunion dinner :)

Late Post: Birthday Extension with Daddy!

2011-02-11T22:17:00.003+08:00

Having myself back home, celebrating birthday with dad was a great occasion for me and my family. We had the same birthday, how rare can that be? A little family with strong bond is always my future ideal family. I hope i'll be able to celebrate this day with my dad always. Hope he's healthy always, cute like kiddo! :) Hope my mum always be happy, able to live a relaxed life. Hope my sister will be excel in studies, able to live a life which she's worth living for :) Love my family- a support which will never break, a love which is forever unconditional. =)

4 of us :)

简单永远都会是最美丽的

Happy me, happy you :)

love you, dad :)

a photo frame with our words for dad this year round

i guess this present is priceless than anything else

a surprise back at home which i've yet opened since early of the January.

Thanks Huiru for the cards and the spaghetti sauce.

The thoughfulness in you is always unbeatable! :)

Thanks for the words and your encouragement that filled all the spaces in the card

Miss you (real lots)

I always tell myself, no matter how bad life decides to turn you to be, always remember to count the blessings that you've received. It is the greatest gift for us to remember and it leads to a life which is beautifully coloured by ourselves. Have faith, remember. I will remember this more and more as years pass by :) Hope you do the same too :)

3 point 8

2011-02-11T22:13:00.001+08:00

7th February 2011

is the 5th day of CNY

a day to remember for life

*hardcore*

~_~

to the RED... to the RED

2011-01-30T20:57:00.007+08:00

Created a surprise party for our boss on Friday at the office with potluck style makans session. Everyone was in red! :) The Student Affairs Office was super red to the extreme that the students were asking what's wrong with the office today. Everyone was thinking about Chinese New Year, in fact, it was actually for our boss's celebration. :)

I think everyone had fun? With the announcement of bonus, it's like adding the value of this party. Haha! The food was very delicious. Thanks everyone for all the food prepared. What's more, Happy Birthday in advance to our boss, Pei Boon! :) Hope you can have a great year ahead. With your leadership, the team shall move forward in the coming days.

Chocolate Indulgence for the birthday girl :)

when the door was opened...tata!

she blew the candle in a blink of an eye... @_@ donno whether the wishes were made or not
pei boon and me
student affairs team! :)
youthful kan? =D
finally, the big boss and the mini boss :) random pic

amy and kershin are in a good term of colour! :) nice!

kershin and i- before cny! :)

may and i! she wanna piang me!

amy and i =D

sdcu! @_@" happy chinese new year 2011? :)

-the end-

outcome

2011-01-27T00:27:00.001+08:00

p/s: this is going to be just a random post.

i used to think to myself, sometimes, is it very important to always focus on the outcome of something? Like, we do this in order to get this; we proceed with this because we think this is going to a fruitful result. Do we really need to be that rationale all time? Do we? Really we do? for instance, we can't see a solid outcome derived from certain project because we are simply nobody to feel how other people feel, especially when the outcome can't be tabulated statistically. Sometimes, i really wish to convince to people that outcome CAN BE subjective. It also can be qualitative. =)

was talking to a friend the other day. Being rational is good but over rational will affect the result of something. I kind of agree with the statement said. Well, i said that. Haha! Sometimes, we're just too logic because our teaching and cultures had conditioned us to be as such. The power of rationality can be so magical. Best case is you get something very positive and worst case is you lose a lot of things in life. It takes so much of time to arrange your thoughts. In the process of arranging your thoughts to fit into the criteria or to fit into the community/society, we have already lost a lot of touch. A very obvious example would be relationship with human.

I just want to say, we're just way too structured.

sometimes, i feel human is very blessed by God. we get the chance to choose and make decision on our own. It can be something beneficial for us. Well, most of the times human are quite selfish and due to this, we only think about ourselves and neglecting others. (this is a highly discouraging action from me to you, i don't like this) We get to interact with people. We get to see/eat/smell/play/read good things. I always think, whoever is it in life, we just gotta cherish them. We ought to treat people nicely because we all, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US is relational to each other. Believe it or not, like it or not it is the universal truth. We ought to speak in a respectful tone, be it you're younger or older.

Therefore, i'm here to highly encourage you guys. Treat everyone as an important person. Respect each other. Give ways for people to breathe. Create a better understanding within each other. The world will be very beautiful. It's not easy, but it's time to give it a try if you've yet started any of these.

Let the "Cycle of 25" Begin!

2011-01-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me :) Yea yea i know, i am old, celebrated my 25th silver jubilee. Can't believe I am actually survived my quarter of life. It's been a real blessing from people around me. Every year is always like a colourful portrait, with fruitful content, made me grow internally and to treasure even more for my life, my family and friends and all the loved ones.

Every year, making wish(es), ok, i have to say i am greedy, i make more than just 1 wish. Let's pray that God will hear my prayer and keep my wishes in His list. =) This year round, I haven't had time to really sit down, be calm and think about my wishes, especially when the first candle was lit, I was so unprepared. Deep down my heart, I was like... Awwww i missed it! Well, as hours went by, I've thought 'em through and I was sincerely making every single wish to God. Don't have to reveal it here, as long as God and me know is more than enough :)

The campers' bday song to me :)

I was so touched when i saw this in FB =)

This year is very special year to me, not having the fact that i labelled my year as silver jubilee, but i was really touched by my friends' gesture in making my bday a successful ones. What's more, the students, who sang a bday song which was recorded and tagged through FB, i was really touched to listen to them (though the song was a lil bit crooked, who cares?) A mini lil choco cake from students that made my day to the sweetest bit. I am thankful to them.

A surprise mini cake for me :) Thankful to all my students!

Every year, it always remind me how grateful I am towards people in my life, for them remembering me and my day. The sms(es) i've received and all the msgs through FB really warmed my heart. Moreover, an email sent all the way from UK, a personalized slide just for me had made me shed a few tears early in the morning at work, Huiru, thank you for your thoughfulness and love though u made me cried. It was really a pleasant surprise. I hope i get to celebrate our big days and happy moment together =)

Dedicated to me by HuiRu which made me cried early in the morning @_@"

For my friends and colleagues, you guys rocked! Thanks for the dinners. This year round was more like an eating marathon than a bday marathon. Haha! Thanks for the good food which bombed your pocket with a big burnt hole. You guys loved me too much until each celebration was with western food!

What a coincidence! :) It's 86! :D

tried my new camera at the peak- Look Out Point :) mi said she's the woman of her words that she'd bring me over as promised. =D

To my SDCU! Thanks for eating so much of bread with me! ^_^v It's really funny to see you girls with bread and pasta! Muahahaha! Italiannes turned out to be a "mamak stall" with our presences because we're just too loud and insulted the fine dining place. Hehe. It's very warm to listen to your blessings for me. And Kershin's loooooong sms :) I've kept it in my hp already.

You girls rock lor! =D

the classic pizza :D yummmmy!

To the council gang! :D Thanks for the smokey bbq buffet! I guess all of us surely had put on weight. Better do more exercise yea, if not, cny cannot eat that much during the dinner! Hmmmph! :) Oh yes, and the ever loving card, haha, Steph, i knew it was from u! It made me laugh lots seeing me a dumb dumb one. Love you! *muaks* Also, to my housemates! Big thank you! The biggest cake of the year- strawberry flavoured with lots of fresh strawberries with the fresh cream topping. Yummmmy! It wasn't not jelak at all! =D

Thank you guys!

isn't the card funny? hahahaha! it's me! :D

Didn't expect we can eat McD prosperity meal together during my bday night :) Thanks, Steph!

Oh and yesh~ thanks for secondary school mates! :) you know who you are! =) Thanks for taking your time to celebrate with me. Enjoy the crap! The food! and the shooting session! :)

Had a good lunch and chatters filled the air :)

Last but not least, to the main organizer of my bday-Amy, words just can't describe my gratitude to you. You're the greatest! =D eventhough all your plans were leaked by your "plan mate" one by one but still, it turned out good! Thank you for keeping all your words for wanting to bring me here and there. Thank you for that big surprise with the pooh and mickey card on the keyboard which i only noticed after a few minutes even though i was right in front of the computer. A simple card with meaningful message has added priceless value to my birthday and my life being a close friend with you. You've set a high benchmark in me and if next round I don't get to have people as such, you're to blame! Muahahahha! Sorry. Too much, i know. =) I'm thankful :) Big hug!

Disney card! Hehehe! :)

Silly card with precious message and collage of photos for journey of our friendships :)

I'm grateful to have you around, for you being the real you :)

At times, celebration really doesn't need a big dinner, an expensive gift, or many many people. I realise, without expectations, there's always surprises! Be it just a small one, it's more than enough to warm my heart. Thank you for making me such a special friend in you. I do wonder sometimes, who am i to deserve such a good treatment. I feel loved. Thank you! *muaks!* Appreciate everyone :)

Randomite

2011-01-20T14:34:00.000+08:00

First two few weeks of January have been hilariously crazy. @_@" You can see from the amount of bloggies i've posted. It's deteriorating vertically. I hope i get to blog about my daily life as much as i can. Motivation just don't cooperate with me by the time i got home. Hehe! (external attribution is strongly discouraged!)

Today is holiday. It's a good break after a long battery consuming of working and studying. It's comfy to be in my room, for some quiet moments, with me and me and me alone. After a long sleep since last night till today. It's simply priceless! :)

Got myself a camera few weeks ago. Yet to try it's "ability". Anyway, just show you guys ONE pic that i love. Cool? @_@"

Happy Thaipusam for the indians!

Can't wait to go back next week before another round of battle begins!

Freshman Camp 2011

2011-01-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

Freshman Camp 2011, for its 2nd time, swayed UCSIU! :) Thank you everyone, especially the Organizing Committee :) Love you, kiddss! =D Of course, not forgetting the ever cheerful, youthful, loud and active campers! :) You guys rocked the camp! Let's hope next Freshman Camp will bring more noise, fun, cheers and great experiences with educational purpose. Once again, i am touched to see the cheers from everyone and the testimonials from campers. You guys amazed me. Thank God for everything.

tinted goggle session :)

this guy, dropped his pant, while swimming in the pool during the game. trying too hard, man!

we officiated the camp :)

back in olden days... raft used to save people. but now, raft (they built on their own) endangers people. =)

Journey to the Knowns

2011-01-10T22:38:00.003+08:00

This is going to be a tough stretching journey. A journey that i've chosen, and i guess it's a road less travelled.

Work + Study = ________

I know i am going to enjoy it! To be back to those bumble bee time! :) Slimming process will be on the green light! :) *i hope*. 2011 will be a crucial year for me, for my studies and for my career. Let's pray for a good beginning, a smooth journey, and a great ending :) I am going to enjoy this process to the fullest! :) Let me grow in a new phase and different perspective! :)

New Year Dinner

2011-01-09T23:08:00.005+08:00

Had my 1st New Year Dinner with my secondary school friends, Rui Xue and Siew Ping :)) All of us enjoyed the "Just Thai" cuisines. Love spicy foodie! =) It's a new year! Should treat ourselves better, kan? :)

Thanks RX for introducing this restaurant to us :)

tiga orang :)

tomyam beehoon, thai mango salad, thai green curry chic, laksa with the curry, tomyam soup and thai style spaghetti! :))) *slurrrrrrrrp*!

Oh then we discovered this frozen yogurt thingy! :)

and so we tried! :)))) SUPER REFRESHING!
a must try thing if you're in One U :)
a lil pricey though coz it'll be weighed after you dispense the yogurt and add the side "dish" for it. So, our bowl of yogurt was RM 19.30 -__-"

ruixue and i :)
it was a great beginning! :)
let's gambateh for a brand new year!

the reflection of 2010; the new chapter of 2011

2011-01-03T23:02:00.010+08:00

I still remembered, the previous new year eve, i had a great new year dinner with my sis and i sat in front of the lappy for the whole day, to reflect my 2009 and to make new year resolution for my 2010.

This year round, i would still go for a reflection of the year (though it's 4th day of a brand new year, who cares), not in terms of my life event, but i would like to dedicate this reflection page with people/things that i'm really thankful for.

Guess 2010 had been a real good year for me. I found my ever happy and enjoyable job as my first stepping stone. The biggest joy and the first thing in my thankful list: my colleagues and the job. The greatest thing of working under pressure (at times) is that you have a bunch of supportive team mate. Thank you May, Ker Shin and Amy for always being there for me during my important period of working days. I am no one without you guys, seriously. The encouragement, the giggles, the trip, the laughters, the seriousness, the professionalism, the patience and the love i've received were the most appreciative gifts for me.

Apart from my very own unit, i won't be forgetting my department, my supervisors and boss for having trust in me throughout the year. Honestly, im blessed to be in Student Affairs with the colleagues and with that, i enjoyed my working experiences to the maximum, i looked forward to my work and i looked forward to learn even more :)The next grateful thing is knowing Amy as a friend, not just confined in the office but out of office. Sometimes, God really put me in such a way that, you'll definately get to bump into different people under certain circumstances. To my dismay, i couldn't believe that she played such an important friend in my life. I used to dislike her as a student and now I love her as who she is, as a friend, as a sister and as a companion :) I'm thankful for knowing her, she made me learn how to communicate better and to express my thoughts (which i hardly do). She offered her helping hands by all means. She can be sarcastic, can be impatient, can be harsh and impulsive, but deep down inside, she has sucha kind heart for a friend. That's something made her special in her own-amy-way :) Thank God for putting her in my life, it's one of the greatest thing in 2010.Next, i'm thankful for my working experiences in UCSIU. I enjoyed myself with students, with all the programmes that we conducted. With the sweat and tears (not really tear) and most importantly the teamwork received was priceless. I got to attain the sense of fulfilment. The opportunities given for me to enhance my experiences as a Student Development staff. I knew I've grown and walked an extra miles. Apart from work, I received an offer for Masters study which i've aimed for. What's there to complain about life? I'm really having a smooth journey.

Freshman Camp was the baby of the year.

Giving student the positive experiences is always the best thing to do :)

guiding and empowerment are always the elements of student development.

A trip to Miri made me learn to take up leadership, to be assertive and prompt when times needed.

Last but not the least, I'm thankful for my ever supportive friends, be it in KL or Kluang. Friends circle started to shrink and reduced. That's when you know who are the one that you're really close with and who are the one you could turn to. Particularly thankful for a few friends like steph, huiru and ray for always being there for me when i wanted to rant about the horrendous life. 2010 was also with a lot of changes, missing my ex-housemates lots, especially the presence of my roommate. Well, life's just gotta move on. I'm leading a great year and I am blessed :) Graduated and i guess that moment of time, family is the best support and witness of all for me. Love my family lots.

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Yes. A new year is here. The new chapter, a new drawing block for me to paint the colours, a new journey to begin. It's gonna be a great year, I know it will :) With lots of challenges, with loves and with strength, I believe I can pull it through and enjoy my year with lots of hope and grace. Attitude is very important.

People always say, nah... forget about the new year resolution, but i'm always here to create some resolutions for myself because it's really great to be able to fulfil some of my resolutions of the year. Be hopeful and looking forward in seeing the rainbow across the sky :)

This year round, I would hope for a few things:

1. To master my counselling skills, to practise it, and to offer help.

2. To strive a balance for my study and work without neglecting either one.

3. To improve my public speaking skill and to give talks/workshops.

4. To further improve my personal relationship with friends around me.

5. To manage myself with people and to brush up my people-comm skills

6. To begin the journey of faith and to understand His words.

7. To continue to spread the seed of love to people around me.

8. To humbly learn from one another with an open heart.

9. To love and be loved- giving and receiving
10. To pray for good health and safety for family, friends and myself.

Let me strive hard, work hard, study smart, play hard and pray hard for a greater 2011! :)

Happy New Year, Peeps! =D

Banyak Hadiah!

2011-01-01T23:45:00.005+08:00

This year round, i had many surprises for Christmas. Surprises as in gifts from people. Thank you for all the gifts. It's very nice to see there're presents on the desk when you get back to office after a long break. =)

1st gift from Carmen :)

then we wrapped the christmas gift for other department staff :) to appreciate those who assisted Student Affairs all these while :) lovely wrapper

surprises after coming back to work :)

huge surprise from boss :) a very very thoughtful personalized gift from boss to everyone of us :) really appreciate it. It's been soooo long ever since i received a handmade stuff :)

thanks May for the inspirational words :) love it! hang it on the wall ady

glittery christmas tree deco by Kershin :) on top of my comp ady :)

message and a surprise from Steph: the gsc movie tix voucher! very surprised too! :)

last gift: all the way from UK by huiru :) very touched. Guess what's in it? I've yet to open it coz din get to go home yet :) heard from parents it's spaghetti sauce :)) so thoughtful of you, huiru :) thanks a lot. Orientation Day: Caterer is still with the christmasy feel! check out the deco :) lovely and yummy food

love the tarts a lot :)

Nana appreciates all! =D

Merry Merry Christmas at Home! :)

2011-01-01T22:11:00.005+08:00

Christmas is always a season of giving and forgiving. I love Christmas. It gives me warmth. When i was small, I was yearned to meet Santa Claus. Now, not anymore. I only hope to gather people around me, to feel the greatness of Christmas, to be with your close ones, your family and your friends. Just a night, for all of us. This year round was very special for me. We had a Christmas bbq. I had my wish fulfilled :) It wasn't just about makan-makan, but it's a day for us to give and to share food together coz we had potluck :) Biggest thanks to my parents who arranged food for us to bbq and big thanks to my friends who came with their specialties :) Love them all! =D

thanks dad for putting this up for us :)

decorated our house!

wanxin celebrated her first christmas with us :)

check out her reindeer hair band :))

i had the most healthiest bbq ever

had so much of fruits and veggie

celebrated shiping, qianhong and szeern's bdays with logcake =D

had christmas gift exchange session

oh yes, the theme colour of the year: green or red

It's very very tiring to be the host but i'm very happy and grateful that i'm able to serve people that i love :) Thanks for those who came, my family members and my lovely friends =) Merry Christmas to my dear ones :) It's also a day when Jesus was born :)

:)

2010-12-25T15:02:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

May God bless you an abundant life! :)

countdown: 4 hours to bbq party! :)

我们的冬至

2010-12-25T12:39:00.004+08:00

外婆挥挥手，指着我们开心地说“吃了汤圆，你们又长大了啊！”

能在外婆家过冬，真的很开心！

传统的味道，熟悉的香味。

仿佛回到了我们的童年。

她老人家也特别开心！:)

冬至快乐，大家！

Northen Getaway! :)

2010-12-23T23:55:00.001+08:00

It was a great weekend getaway to the North! :) Taiping! It was a trip with Kwang and Amy. We had a short trip of 3D2N together. Amy was the tourguide. Haha! A blur one. Sometimes, the blurness of hers as our tourguide made us ponder is she a local? haha! Nevertheless, we had a great trip. Thank you Amy and her family! :)) Never felt hungry throughout the trip! @_@"

first breakfast: wan tan mee (slightly different from the normal. haha!)

the so-called 猪杂 but how come with prawnie and fish ball? @_@ Should be with more pork or the pig internal organs. *green face*

wah! this ever lasting nostalgic parking piggy bank! so cute! ^^

Then we headed to Zoo Taiping as our first spot! :) It was a great experience and seriously, i miss zoo so much! :) Been wanting to go to the zoo! and finally! I got it! haha! :) Zoo Taiping was very clean. The smell of animal wasn't strong at all. Guess it's pretty clean huh? :)

Amy got us a local rate :) RM 8, if not it'll be RM12

Let me show you guys some interesting animals.

1. Wild Boar with beard around his mouth! So cute! Like cartoon! haha!

2. His name is Slow Loris. No joke! Every action of his was like a slow motion animal. We laughed like nobody's business. hahahahahah! :)

3. Baby lions: This gotta be our pleasant surprise throughout this trip! So cute. Never though i can carried baby lions. @_@" They were marching in front of this gate. They were blocked between 2 gates. So kesian.

It's their 1st time too!

this is quite heavy. =x a lil bit stinky if you sniff harder. Haha! But they're very very tame and cute! Just like pup! :)

4. Honey Bear- amy said she put on mask a lot. That's why her face is fair. ahah!

After Zoo, we makan lunch! Mee rebus from Taiping! :) I must say the taste from the north has a vast difference from here too! hehe! :)

the old street :)

amy's mum brought us to buy local biscuits. It's nice! Thank you Auntie :)

Rested a while at home, then we proceed with the 2nd round of visitation. We went to this waterfall that our tourguide used to hangout during her childhood. It's beautiful and it's always breathtaking to see such a beautiful scene and listen to the flow of water :) Love it.

Collected some stones, very smooth one woh! :)

After that, we went to Taiping War Cemetary. It was a memorial park to commemorate those soldiers who sarcrifised lives during the war.

well maintained. :) Perfect cleanliness. Oh btw, there's no dead body underneath :)

i think this is the best self-shot by kwang =x We're at Taiping LAKE GARDEN! Wooohoo! It's a must-go place! :))

i don't want to tell you how beautiful this place is. You have to go and withness it with your bare eyes! :) Some scenery shots :))

it's my 2nd visit to Lake Garden. As beautiful as always :)

Taiping is really very very green! :)

trees and leaves on the lake? :)

Then we off for chendol :) Very cooling after some exercises at the park. haha! :)

Taiping Muzeum! :) Free entry

i forgot what's his name ady =x

this is the last lunch in Taiping. Auntie said this is a must-eat food :) roasted duck! amy ordered a big portion! =X

and the famous lobak that ended our trip :)

It's my first time driving to Taiping, great experience, happy bonding time with friends :) I'm thankful with the hospitality received :) I wish we can visit more other places :) Thank God for the safe journey! :))

Merry Merry Christmas!

2010-12-23T00:26:00.004+08:00

Christmas is always warm. Partly because it's rainy season in Msia? Weather's getting a whole lot more colder. It's also a time of giving and forgiving.

Lotsa people must be cracking the brains to think of what to buy for people. We struggle with giving. Do we give because we want to or we need to? How do we give to people who have practically everything already?

I came across an article which strikes me with a bright light bulb. It was a sharing by a journalist from The Star. It's not only in a particular season but as part and parcel of our day-to-day life. Let me share this article with you guys (in a summary form, of course) and some opinions of mine. =D

1. Give your personal touch

A home made card or self made gift makes the gift truly special for people.

2. Give to a worthy cause

Instead of buying something, make a donation to a cause and pass on the receipt to the person you were planning to give to. You can also support such causes by buying their products which are not only better but serve to remind us of their needs.

3. Give to the workers who are in worthy causes

People who work in orphanages or homes are sometimes forgotten. They are not paid much. Don't just say how sacrifice they are, send them a gift.

4. Give blood and pleadge organs (highlight for myself!)

This is something which i seriously would like to do. :) When i die, i hope i get to donate my functioning organs to people who need them most.

5. Give your time

Sometimes, we are so occupied and we seldom have time for people. It's also a day to day thingy, which i think we shall too, give our time to people around us. It's not always about us only. :)

6. Give your forgiveness

A season of giving is also the season of forgiving. Reach out to those who may have hurt you, in the same way you would want them to do likewise.

7. Giving up

Sometimes, it's much easier to give than to give up. Look at the clutter in your lives, including the habits you want to break. If you learn to give them up, life will become simpler and happier.

8. Giving and receiving

Although it's more blessed to give than to receive, we much also learn to receive otherwise we will deprive the other person of the joy of giving.

Point No. 8 is a particular point which i want to change in myself. I wish i can learn to be a receiver and a giver at the same time. It shall be listed in a new year resolution then! :) Point No. 6 too, is an important point which i have to take note on my own. We shall not hold an grudges. I should learn to let go and forgive people. I am learning, please guide me.

Wish every child of God will have a great Christmas! :) Blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year, folks! :)

the union of both cultures

2010-12-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

Sunday was a blissful day to begin with :) attended the unique matrimony between an indian and a chinese. :) It's really not an easy effort for both people from different cultures to mix together. Imagine, if your husband/wife is of different race, there're so many things you have to take note and, not only this, but also to accept the family of your partner.

It's my first time attending an indian wedding ceremony. It took almost 1.5 hours for the ceremony to finish. @_@" never thought it'll be that long. Anyway, seeing the mother cried of happiness, it's kinda touched :) Guess wedding is a grace that we receive from god. :) we should all receive with a thankful heart that we're able to find a soul mate. Wishing everyone with best of luck in searching the true happiness! =D

it was held in multipurpose hall.

an indian and a chinese :) looking real great!

kid- the drummer :)

holding candles by the indian kids - from the groom

then, the chinese kids were holding the candles from the bride's.
what a lovely combination! ^^

see how happy the bride is :))

Student Affairs: Christmas Tree!

2010-12-12T21:00:00.001+08:00

It was a leisure Friday! :) We're all set to install Christmas tree and some decorations at the Reception. Somehow to "beautify" the campus (i hope). Haha! :) Guess everyone was happy to see a christmas tree around, symbolize the season of giving. I always love Christmas more than anything :) It just gives you the warmth, though we're living in an all time summer Malaysia. =D Anyway, wishing everyone Merry Christmas in advance! :)

unpacked the tree from the boxes and unwrapped the countless plastic bags. Who on earth was so patient to wrap the tree like tat last time? @_@"

2 beautiful ladies were decorating the reception desk.

woohooo! :) i see the tree, with a lil snow on it! =D
jingle bell!- kwang, serene and... me =x
the happy christmas "labours"! XD