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Flat.

totally.

totally flat.

the degree

mood degree fluctuated. shooting down to the ground, to the well, deep into the sea.

one of my colleagues in Scientech (my internship company) passed away due to accident after knocked off from school. another one is still in hospital, carried with quite a critical condition.

the late colleague was someone whom i got in touched with the most because i was assigned in the office more during internship period. she was humorous and young. worse still, she left her baby and husband. :( Before we left, i remembered i did a wallpaper to her and saved it on her computer screen. Sad to know that it now stays forever as memory.

fingers snap! gone! just like tat.

cherish everyone around us.

most importantly, be careful on the road.

someone thought to be so far, yet the feeling is so real.

praying.

for everyone's safety and health.

天空那么宽 回忆在倒带 留一点空白 才能学会释怀

right now...

in life
there are too occupied with uncertainties.

when you have so much to say
when you have so much need to be done
but you just can't...

i want to be a good girl.
want to be a good daughter, granddaughter blablabla...

but at times, things ain't gonna go on your own way.
and i shall name it as 心有馀而力不足。
tired of thinking all these.
tired with conflicts.
tired with everything.

down.

speechless

Let's just treat adult like an adult.

Give respect to others just as you respect yourself.

Thank you.

kosong

i can't feel the sense of belongingness.

feeling weird.

unreal.

unfamiliar.Maybe it's time to learn how to cope in my outbound zone.

to change my perception in everything i have in mind.

time fades everything.

Sometimes, i just need the definition of CARE and FRIEND.

Don't judge people for not caring one another. External factors count. If you think there's so many people do not care, then i can say, you are just so wrong about it. A little sms, or a lil crap do count.

Friends will not matter so much about the fact of care or not. Because, deep inside our hearts, there's always a slot for every friend. Through sms, msn or even an email, they are, too, the contact of care. Friends will not be seeing each other often. We are aware that we're at different areas and everyone is busy with their own stuffs. Therefore, unity and friendship are not being weighed or measured in this way.

Seeing each other everyday, doesn't mean forever friends.

Only those who see each other not so often, but still can be as happy as the same good old days, that's called friends.

Why making it such a hooo-ha? ==" Me, dont' understand.

Time is not just fading away friendships, it also fades away the faith and trust among us. How disappointed is that?

=/

I NEED A BREAK

i seriously do.

monday is blue

Sigh~ have a strong monday blue today and everything didn't see to work well all the way along the classes... =.=" *sigh-sigh* o.O" i think this is partly because of the insomia i had last night and a lot of works came at once.. gosh... i really didn't expect to have so much work today and when lecturer listed out all the due dates.. i was like..."shit~ i'm doomed!"

It was still ok after the class because we're heading home! ;) Going back home is always the best thing to think of after classes. But... who knows here come the catering pakcik who nag, nag and nag to us while taking the food. OMG! Making my mood dropped down to the well man! EXCUSE ME!! -_______-"" what on earth is this man! I DIDN'T OWE U ANY $$ OKAY!!! can u like, treat us in a better way? gosh. I was so THE furious man! Kwang also speechless. Nagging is still considerable coz old ppl is supposed to nag but HELLO!! nag+scold is diff case okie!?!!? *i don't give it a damn of this man!* And i accidentally dropped the food which i carried. Luckily, everything is still in a pack. *sweatzz* I wonder why i was so angry with this. I am not supposed to be angry with it. Gosh. It's time to learn up some anger management. =) SMILE with green face now~~~~ *fake*

Supposed to go home this weekend but failed. Sigh. I wanna go home and see my auntie. *soB*! if i go home this week, i think i will jz say sayonara to myself first. -_____-"

In short, i hate short semester. *hectic*

crapping around...

have nth much to crap about recently... i still feel that i m out of soul... hmmmmmmm~~~i can laugh wholeheartedly at once and i can be quiet out of the blue~~~

WHAT IS HAPPENING???? =.=" gosh~~~~~~

u know what? i miss kluang. I miss home.

sometimes, i feel like i am running away from something which is unfavourable, which i dislike, which i was not-so-ok with...

the more i don't feel right... the more i hate it...

the more i feel like i should be doing something about it...

the more i stun right over there.

WHAT IS GOING ON man??

oh well... i am quite hate myself for this period of time. i hope to give it a stop.

ng shan na! SEIZE the DAY! please don't waste any min of ur life~~~ BUCK UP! :)

worn-out

i'm not worn out physically, but emotionally and mentally. I feel so retarded. Motionless, moodless and emotionless. I wonder why. Where's my enthusiasm? Where's my energy? Hmmm... these questions go deep within my heart. Basically, i am tired. Ya... i think i am. I just hope that my exhaution will end eventually and back to the normal lively me. =.=" I don't want to be like this... i need a breather.... i think i should recharge myself in a better way... any idea? Maybe i should check my brain wavelength and brain activity through ERP(event-related potential) technique. Maybe my brain isn't functioning right now... maybe i just need a short rest and let me breathe in some fresh unpolluted oxygen. :) well... that's how i feel so far... nites ppl! may u be well and happy! =)

counting down

5

4

3

2

1

!!!!!!!!!!!

doomed!!

exam is drawing near

what a world...

man is god's creation.

God never taught us to be selfish, neither did He tell us to run away from responsibilities... and He didn't tell us to do something out of the norm(but He nv told us not to hv creativity) ^^

Personally, i feel that man should always:

*be humble

*be generous

*be helpful in one way or another

*be responsible

*sharing and caring

however, from what i saw, what i heard, what i noticed, the world doesn't exist as a sphere... it's like a triangle... with all the bucu-bucu... with all the peaks, the angles... jz like a heart, painted in black... or sometimes, being hurt and it becomes blue-black... everyone jz try to protect themselves. Who wants to get hurt anyway?? So... protecting our rights is a norm... overprotecting ourselves sometimes DO hurt the others.

Sarcasism is in this blog. I'm sorry. But i'm jz kinda pissed and unsatisfied with the incident i'd been through today. Kinda disappointed with ppl. Or shall i call... friends? Maybe u hv ur reason and maybe i shld be more considerate, but... sorry... i can't see any gentlemanship in you...

i used to repeat a phrase in my heart, "Sharing and Caring is our way of Life~" but i wonder does this phrase ever occured to anybody out there? I believe there ARE... and i absolutely believe there are whole lot of ppl DO NOT think it this way. What i wanna say is... i salute sR.Mary... she's the one who gv me inspiration and she's the one who taught us the way of life. As SMCC girls, we should be thankful to her. =) i've learned and i will still learn without fail... i believe ppl should learn and improve themselves everyday. ^^

so... whatever it is... i take this as a lesson... a lesson in life and a lesson to learn...

CHIAOZ~~~~

p/s: this isn't a big big BIG negative happening in me... but i'm jz a bit emotional...that's all... don't girls think much everytime? Hah! :x