shaking my head

i just don't understand.
why can't i be a more detailed person?
i just need 5%-10% of conscientiousness essence in me.
i am not greedy.
just 5%-10%. =(

i wish myself to be more particular in drafting things out.
especially important and formal document.
so that i don't have to bother others
to amend this and that.

@_@"
all these repetitive matters
are making me feel as though
i've never learned and improved.
muddle-head.

CANNOT BE LIKE THAT ALWAYS.