recency effect...

Dear Father Lord,

I pray for a betterment- for my attitude, for my emotion and for my own management. I pray for inner peace and strength. I need a lot of strength through difficult moments and most importantly, i pray for wisdom and patience in completing the responsibilities ahead, be it as a staff or a student.

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Honestly speaking, sometimes i do face the difficulties to laugh my heart out because i am so occupied with stuffs and challenges. Funny how i know all of these will mould me to another level yet it seems like i failed to do so.

Lots of thoughts in my mind lately. Maybe i shall decipher them today one by one.

1. Respect- I find this virtue is such a significant essence for life. It doesn't matter whether you're younger or older than anyone, respect stays in a mutual relationship- love, family, friends and work. It remains as it is, just like God remains the greatest. For me, respect can be earned but respect can never reproduced by authority and status. Came across all sort of people in life, little did i know that i can face a person who plays external locus of control to that high that it can shoot up to heaven. Where is humility? Where is the care? Where is the considerate heart? I don't know. Big question for me to handle is "How will/can i respect this person?" There's no methodology to begin a respect but i've been questioning myself on HOW and doubting my attitude whether am i being a horrible person for thinking such way. But i guess, it's not up to me to do anything. As long as i am consciously clear, i am done! Well, it's just my thought.

2. Complaints- This topic was discussed over a ride with boss the other day. She questioned how can a person be blessed if he/she is filled with complaints? Hmmm, i find this quite true. I felt that we can always count the blessings rather than complaints. As a counsellor-to-be, i also have to consciously remind myself to cut down the complaints if possible. I need strength to work this out.

3. Emotion- i think i am in need to realign my emotion. Due to my personality, it flunctuates quite a lot. I don't wanna affect others. I wanna work within myself. That's why i feel, i need a lot of inner peace and learn to smile more.

4. Help- being in a helping profession, i guess the most important thing is to help out each other if possible (especially people within this beautiful field). I am so thankful to meet some very very helpful mentors who always share with us everything they can. I wish one day i'll be able to share my knowledge and experience to the juniors. It's a niche group- we ought to help each other.