believer

I've been wanting to share this last week, but too many things happened in a week, too brain consuming, therefore, hardly have the inspiration and mood to pendown something here :)

Anyway, it's a message that i heard from church invited speaker the other day. This pastor is a chinese, i believe he also understands very much what a chinese will think, how's the mentality and all in this community.

He shared with us this message. It's said that people only choose christianity, choose to believe God when things happen. Disastrous thing to be exact. Previously, I also heard from others that, christians comes to you when you're at your weakest point of life. When you're super sick, you seek for god(s). When you're poor, you pray for wealth stuff like that.

I always wonder, why we, chinese can be that selfish? It's nth about religion here, but it's the culture that we've brought into. Why are we so selfish? When do we wanna give ourselves a change? My mum used to tell me we need to 还神 when we receive good thing. It's just like how a pastor will tell u to praise God in prayer for all the blessings that you've received. I could agree no more. We seriously need to learn how to praise Lord. He protects us when our lives are at stake. He plans for us to go through difficulties with strength. If we can go through all these, we should thank Him for all these. Not only to think about our own welfare, we gotta think of His words too. When we receive thing, we shld say thank you. That's very common and that will be common when it comes to spirituality too.

I'm grateful that i choose to be a believer at this period of time when i am ready. It's not a period whereby i NEED him, but it's a period i WANT to be with Him. I hope i can continue to uphold this spirit :)

everyone has a story to tell

I believe everyone of us will definately have our story to tell. Every day makes an episode. It can be a happy ending, it can be a unsatisfactory ending. Nevertheless, we shall never give up in life because i believe everyone of us will be able to create a beautiful ending. Pray to God for a new beginning when we fall; praise God when we lead an ideal and positive life.

At times, one's family background can really influence the way we act and react, the way we perceive thing, we receive and give things. However, i believe it's through understanding that we then receive acceptance on one another. Remember, understanding is much much more important than tolerating. :)

Just wanna share a song to all of you, it's indeed a very motivational song:

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wonder if i'd ever healed again

Oooh just like all the seasons
Never stay the same
All around me i can feel the change

Chorus:
I will break the chain to find me
Happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know i can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And i've learnt how to leave it where it is
And i see that i was wrong
For ever doubting i could win

Oooh just like all the season
Never stayed the same
All around me i can feel the change

x Chorus

Life's too short to have regrets
So i'm learning now to leave it in the past, and try to forget
We only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

x Chorus





No matter what, i will always love my family because they bring me to this world :)

Luke 6: 32-36 Love your Enemies

"If you love only the people who love you, why should you receive a blessing? Even sinners love those who love them! And if you do good only to those who do good to you, why should you receive a blessing? Even sinners do that! And if you lend only to those from whom you hope to get it back, why should you receive a blessing? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount! No! Love your enemies and do good to them; lend and expect nothing back. You will then have a great reward, and you will be children of the Most High God. For he is good to the ungrateful and the wicked. Be merciful just as your Father is merciful."

Was reading this during one of the reading nights. Came across with the verses that caught my eyes so much. I was thinking to myself at that juncture. Why am i being so selective in life? As in, i will only love those who sincerely love me, be it friends or family members and i will give more to those who love me. After reading this, I think i'm very much a sinner. =X Thus, I will set this reminder, to be gracious to people, to be a merciful person. It'll be a struggle, I pray to God that He will walk this journey with me. To let me walk into people's life without a selective heart.

Yes, i was right in the beginning that counting a blessing is very important. I always count things that i've received, all the good things. BUT! What did i do? What have i done so far... that matters so much to my surrounding, or to just myself? Guess sometime, we just don't stop and think. We use so much of our brain that at times, will hurt our surrounding. Our actions and words (from brain) sometimes can be unintentional, but it's always a hard truth that it'll hurt people.

I love the tagline of Ignite Community Church (ICC)- a hospital for sinner, not a museum for saints. We are imperfect, we go to church as a sinner, to repent our sins to God for us to be a better person. Continue to go to church people, you'll realise one day that your relationship with God is so wonderful, for you be able to spread this love to others as well, including your enemy :)

Freshman Camp: School of Medicine

Oh yes, i'm not promoting again about UCSI University Terengganu Campus, but here we were again, headed back to KT for Freshman Camp for the School of Medicine. Donno why, i was really looking forward to this camp even though i'm not the direct liaison in this camp. For me, i feel Freshman Camp has achieved a certain level of fame. At least, i know that when we mentioned about this camp, it has became a known instead of unknown. Nothing to brag about, it's just that sometimes, in my opinion, it just take everyone's effort to make things happen, it's a matter of who want to start first. Looking forward to my new dream! :)

this time round, it's the 4 of us. Two advisors, two speakers :)

I have to tell you.

This bunch of kids really make me feel so proud of them- the student committee! :) What's more, they were never a friend before, but now they're like superb close friend after a camp.

Their ever humble learning attitude, their teamwork and spirit, happened miraculously within a month by God's grace! :)) A great team to develop, be it now or future!

I always think, ATTITUDE is the best antidote for anything.

Campers had to cook ikan geli :) cut raw! burn it with their own set fire, and each to have a bite! :)

campers at the beach! :) It was the highlight of the camp! =)

my scholarship student who promotes UCSIU so much- the University, the Experience! :) Haha! I'm very proud to see her coming thus far :)

Front view of T'ganu Campus.

All in all, i must say this camp was a great success. Although campers could be quite nasty, could be slightly cocky than usual, but still, everyone managed to pull it thru! :) I must say, the learning spirit, the commitment really made this huge success. Encouragement to the team is also a MUST because all in all, we all need some emotional pumps! :)

understanding

Understanding people, to some, seems like the most difficult thing ever. It's like worse than having constipation. *wink* When i started working, this part of me seems to be activated, as in, it never came to my mind that this element has turned out to be a conscious "source" in me.

Understanding people is a virtue to me. It takes a long period of time. Often, we always have that pair of judgmental eyes. Seeing a person without a smile on the face, we said he/she is snobbish and unfriendly. As time goes by, then we'll realise "eh, not bad actually. This fella is quite funny and caring." Through experience, be it good or bad, we earn/lose that person.

Sometimes, before having a thorough understanding, it's advisable that we just keep our mouth shut before our words start to label people. I have to admit, im quite sucks at that :) because i have a big mouth :D I need to listen to people than talking. So, please, if next time i really talk a lot, please say "Ng Shan Na, shut up." :) Consciouly, gotta tell myself that. Being critical to people isn't a good thing to be brag about. Amen? :)

Great day, peeps :)

my energizer

Going back to hometown, my time is always dedicated to family and friends. I believe they're the ultimate energizer of my life. Going back home is all about resting, putting work aside and to solely focus on memory recollection and updates :) It's great to be able to catch up with some friends, though the moment was short, but it was good enough for me :) Looking forward to other opportunities by any means! :D

Finally, get to see Ern :)

my sis, cousin and ern at Old Taste

the cousin gang :) Thanks Dear for the bookmark :) Donno why, it gives me a peaceful sign :)

I think i need that very much! :D

met Mei and Yeekiat for a quick breakfast on Sunday morning :)) Really missing those crazy form 6 days with them :) Met Yuanhui and girlgirl. We brought Wanxin out for yoghurt ice cream! She was thrilled! :) So am i! haha! This lovely girl gave me 2 kisses on that day :) felt so loved! =D such a cheerful lil girl :) oooo? Where is my ice cream? :)

Footprints- Margaret F. Powers @1964

One night i dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed
scenes from my life.
For each scene, i noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life
shot before me I looked back
at the footprints in the sand.

There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and i questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, You told me
when i decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during
the most troublesome times of my life
there's only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why,
when i needed You most, You leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints
it was then that i carried you."

This message surprised me a lot. :) It was a bookmark given by amy. Thought it was nothing much but it strikes me a lot when i read. :)

makan and celebration!

That day was a special day. A day of deceiving, a day of acting, a day of laughter, a day of gastronomic endeavour! :) I guess after so long, it's our first meal together as a team. Wow, it's like ages. @_@" I would say things are getting pretty interesting with the 6 of us. Everyone is unique in her own way. Hehe! Despite all the hectic schedule, everyone still made time for the dinner that night. :) It was definately great to have you guys around! =)

And of course, we had a motive behind the dinner. Celebrated Fatt Mee's birthday. Hmmm donno whether was it a suprise but we definately had lots of fun due to our narcissism = shiok sendiri act. We predicted and acted Fatt Mee. Haha! She's such a great counsellor :)) Blessed to have her in our team. The ever loving one will always being bullied by me! Muahaha! :))

so, inilah kami :)

inilah Fatt Mee aka 肥面 :) Haha!

a nickname that used to tease her :P
the cake- which was melted due to a late dinner

ooo, and these were our dishes of the night!!!

More to come, girls? :)

my yellow room :)

As what i've mentioned before, i've shifted to a new place :) Quite love my room condition now. It's quiet, and less dust as compared to before. Here i am, back to the single bed. The room now is yellow themed. Haha! :) It's just a coincidence that things that i have are in yellow, so does my surname: 黄. Hehe! :)

I have my wardrobe given by previous housemate. My bed, my study table and the rack/shelf. So, everything seems ok. Though the area of the room wasn't as big as last time, but it's more than enough for me :) Shall not buy more things, if not, shifting isn't as easy as it seems. Just a quick sneak peek for my room! :)

yay? :)

No pain, no gain.

Today after the sermon, i am so determined to scribble something here in the blog. The message was so strong and meaningful. It was on 1 Samuel 18-19 in the scripture. Pastor message was about "No pain no gain". It was mentioned how David was pulling through the struggle with God in him. He chose to escape rather that retaliate. Just like how an enemy has arrived, he did not choose to kill. Often at times, when something decides to happen without our knowledge, especially when bad days strike, meeting with bad people so to speak, we mourn, we complain, we shout. When things got better, we rarely give thanks. If you're in the journey with God, we'll soon realise the struggles that we pull through with strong determination, it's a process of growing. I agreed with what pastor said "wilderness will derive our character". Character is always seen when we tend to solve an issue. Don't take wilderness as the judgment from God, it is actually the will of God for us to go through something in order to grow internally, and i believe it's also a way for us to grow spiritually with Him as our guide. Struggles are good, although most of the time it's hard. Nobody will love struggles. Everyone yearns to live a simple problem-free life. To me, i can guarantee that, it's through difficulties, we find victory. Just like how we always practise badminton, we won the medal and we feel the victorious touch! :) Whatever it is, we ought to give thanks to God.Sometimes, we always aim for big picture, or even bigger picture. We are being taught to think far, to think further! As huge as a dream, as beautiful as it is. We forget about HOW we achieve that. We bypass lots of mini steps of achievement. As much as we want that, we'll still forget that it;s the lil lil steps that we pave to reach the point of excellence! It's good that we always strive for a good result, it's even better to strive for excellence, but it's a no-no to strive for perfection. We are not perfectionist, neither you nor me. If we get to strive till excellence, we're considered a good man. Continue with the excellence. None of us can fulfill anyone's "perfection".

I've decided to post a blog if i can, everytime after Sunday service. It always bring a lot of messages through my mine :)

Counselling

Theories are always the solely thing we learn back in our education system, especially during primary-secondary schools. As we reached University level, apart from theories, praticality of each theory is emphasized. As of now, studying Masters is another level. Apart from learning theories in a deeper manner, we practise skills too.

Tried counselling for once and i felt i am still in the amateur stage. Im glad that there're people around me to give me lots of guidance. It's always a blink of enlightment when there's some advices given from left to right, top to bottom. Really appreciate it :)

Counselling is a very special field. It requires more than just giving a change of life but it has gotta do with our own attitude in counselling. As a counsellor, the first important feature is to be patient. It takes more than a second to let a person to realise a thing in life. If client is stubborn, will you give up just like that? @_@ But here's another thing about counselling, things don't come on your way all the time because counselling is not about ME, but it's all about the choice of the clients. What's more, counselling requires a lot of love about people. If we don't have thought for people, i guess we might want to think about venturing to other field.

This is something that hit me hard the other day "Shan Na, counselling is not about yourself, it's all about the client." I'm glad that i finally tried something new for this year. Part of the resolution achieved? :)While doing counselling, i believe for me, doing development programme is my energizer. I am a kinaesthetic person. I love to move around. I like to interact with students, and most importantly, i like to develop students. I'll feel extremely happy to see students grow from level to level :) In education field, it's not just about academic but it's about students' well-being. I would want them to develop with moral value, with great character, with positive attitudes! That's how powerful is for us to start a "change" in generation.

Summer Escape!

It's glad that friends come by and hangout together :) Especially friends whom you longed to see and yet chances are so slim :) I am very thankful that they came by and to do some simple catch-up together. Often times, i feel very proud of my friends, it's been such a great journey since secondary school and we're still maintaining the relationship. The care and love are the elements that we uphold since then i supposed? :)

We cracked our heads to think of a place to hangout. Mall isn't a good place because shopping isn't the main criteria for us. It was real hot. "Genting" was blurted randomly and off we went. @_@" Drove to the mid of the hill and took cable car up! :) It's been real long. The weather was just perfect! =) Breezing cool air with great companions! What's more to complaint? :)

this is my curse of Genting. I puked... again.

Group photo before we left outdoor activities :)Celebrated soofei's birthday :) cute heart-shaped Baskin Robbins :) It's been so long since we celebrated birthday together. I miss my birthday with you girls lot.Photo edited by Siew Ping :) Love it

Thanks to our friend who is working in Genting, we enjoy meals and fun with half-priced rate! :) Hehe! Minimum spending, maximum enjoyment! =) Drove back home late at night, thank God we reached safely. Spent our one last day- Sunday with dimsum and coffee at Midvalley before they set-off to Singapore :)

Till then!

By the way, it's dated way back in early of May =)

simple

Sometimes, life can fill you abundantly by the blessing of God. It takes such a simple gesture to create a meaningful life. At times, life without expectation gives you a lil bonus of happiness. As simple as it is, as easy as life goes on. Sometimes, while i reflect upon it, i can feel the sense of contentment. As i always do, count the blessings of each day received, optimism will lead a positive life.

As title of today, i name today as a day of simplistic motion. Came back to Kluang to accompany my family. All we did was to get together and have a good meal. I always look forward each time when i am home. This time, grandma was in the picture. Exuberance strikes high :) I always wish to have a proper meal with grandma. Today was indeed a bonus day. An exercise through shopping after meal with family was another simple happiness too. Through seeing new stuff and to shop for necessities and to discuss over it, it's just marvellous.

It's a day that i shall give thanks to God. Simple gestures make life seems much easier. God made my family stronger and stronger each day and make us treasure each other. I am thankful for all the wondrous blessing you have shone on me :) Thank God for my family.

i have shifted! :)

Finally, i had made up my mind, to shift and to get out from Cheras. The place that i'm staying now is very quiet. Had been wanting to move away from student area to catch some breather. Oh well, i've done that with God's grace. :) Was searching for so long but it just doesn't seem to have one. When i did not search for it, here comes the available one :) Isn't it just a miracle? :)

Freshman Camp 3

Moving to its 3rd count, i believe Freshman Camp had been expanded to certain level. Wishing Freshman Camp can be a continuous, never ending event for the University :) Whatever it is, every event will definately has its room for improvement. It's never the best, but it's never the worst! :)

It is the first daring move to shoot up to Kuala Terengganu campus to hold this event. Lots of challenges faced but everyone still able to brace themselves up =)

It's happy to see the camp is growing :)

one of the most attractive reasons of coming to KT is the beautiful beaches and the ever blueish sea that stay in this ever peaceful state.