mini lil cowy card

It's a pleasant surprise early in the morning :) Appreciate it.

Thank you for the message, it means a lot to me.

Really thankful.

*hugs*

Ocean will Part

If my heart has grown old
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

When i'm blind to my way
There Your spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Ocean will part, nations come
At the whisper of your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life, Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As you open my eyes to the work of Your hand

And my heart will find praise
I'll delight in Your way
As you open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As you open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Breaking Walls Buidling Bridges

It was a fine Friday! :D Attended the facilitators' preparatory session of Breaking Walls Building Bridges. It would say it was an eye opener for me to view this documentary- it portrays how Christianity and Islam's leaders (imam and pastor) come together to create an inter-faith centre to unite people in Nigeria. It was indeed a great experience for me, to enhance my knowledge on religion and how religion brings love and understanding eventually despite of many many differences.

It is definately a great awareness that every Malaysian shall learn. For me, i always believe religion brings good teaching, promotes love and peace in the community and most importantly, it brings us together, to believe and to have the faith in God, any God in this context. Sometimes i do wonder, if we were to be a great follower of faith, why do we still fight? I mean, war happened because of religion issue, why? Aren't we supposed to learn how God treat people?

It is also crucial for us to respect one's religion, not to insult any religion and not to push people to the corner to believe your faith. It is always a "call". A call for you to step forward and to believe in it, to follow the words and message in any religion. It is the same across different religions. Mindset of the follower makes a huge difference.

Anyway, it was a great session! Thank you for the speakers who dare to make the first move to create such awareness to our country :) Thanks Dr. Hamidah (a muslim) and Patricia (a christian) for your information :)

我的

哪怕就只是影响一个人
就那么一个人
我都是知足的
因为我知道有一天
我会慢慢引导更多需要帮助的人 :)

生命是有影响力的
因为在你的生命里
不只是自己
可是还有身边的人与事

相信美丽的开始，总会有美好的结束
我爱我为人的力量
加油！

Religion

Thank you to all my sisters and the message :)

Religion, to me, it had been an empty shell.

I couldn't recall when. When was the time that i felt, i was empty of soul. I was not empty because i don't have love but i was empty because i do not own a religion.

I've been striving hard for things around me, but not a relationship with any God. I am afraid of commitment first thing, then i am afraid i can't be a good follower. I wasn't taught over a religion apart from bits and bits from education background. Friend was right, i have been an observer.

The words written by Nicky Gumbel were right.

"You and I were created to live in a relationship with God". Until we find that relationship there will always be something missing in our lives, thus we often aware of a gap.

This sentense quoted strikes me. Sometimes, He seems so near and yet so far. Then i realised, it is not about Him, it is me.

I am glad. At least right now, I know where should i head to. At least, i've taken a leap of faith :)

Don't you think so?

Dear Father, enlighten me with your words, guide the new-me to understand your every message behind and i pray to walk through this journey with Your presence.

Happy Birthday, Mummy!

Happy Birthday to my dearest Mummy!

May you be healthy always
be happy always

be joyful always

Thank you for being a great mum throughout the years.

For all the sacrifises that u've made

For all the days and nights u've put up for us

For all the love that u've given

It's simply priceless

You're the greatest woman on earth :)

我爱你 Mummy！:)

a special day for me :)

A week of sugar rush? :)

I would say this is the most special Easter i've ever experienced.

It is special to me because I have made my commitment to God.

It is special because I chose to believe in Him.

It is special because it was my first Easter Sunday as a Christian.

It is special because there are friends around me who've been encouraging.

It is special because my important people were around me during that defining moment and they were so crazy over this decision of mine.

It is important because I will start to grow this relationship with Him :)

I thank God for all.

For all the greatness I've received.

For all the joy i've shared.

and I pray that i'll continue to grow and know You more :)

amen :D

special commitment in life

Im home. Yes, i am. Kluang i mean :)

Sitting in front of the comp, i realised, it's been so long since i sat down quietly at home, to look at this blogger browser, and start my brain engine for a different function.

Had a good chat with a friend today. I am happy to have a heart to heart talk with friends. That's also when i realised, since when i prefer a one-to-one session. I used to be very bubbly in my crowd, although i know i am still do, but, the intensity has reduced. So, we talked about many things today. Direction of life was the main dish of today's topic.

Having a long lasting friendship with someone is never a smooth sailing journey. It needs so much of effort and energy to pay the "maintenance" fee. *well, it's just a metaphor. I mentioned about to have someone to fall back to whenever i have trouble. I realise, each time, when life is challenging, I know i have my support back at home. I know who can i fall back to, i know where to get help, i know who to shout to for tension release purpose :) Each time, i feel blessed because i have friends around. I can't say family is negligible, but due to distance, friends are those i can fall back to.

For me, it is a commitment that i have in life. To me, friendship is a commitment. It's something that we have and we need to make an effort for it. It's a very special relationship. Some people might think it's not as imp as how i look at it but for me, there's just like a backbond in the body. However, I've been neglecting ppl in life due to this hectic schedule. I missed the moments tat my friends needed the most. I wasn't updated about my important friends. I am making a change. I am thinking for a resolution. I am learning to adjust. Give me some times. I am around still, until anyone decides to ask me to go. :)

Thanks for those who always being a support to me. Shan Na is thankful for all of these.

Destigmatising Mental Illness

It's a very fruitful Sunday than sleeping like a log :) Attended a public forum on Destigmatising Mental Illness. Inspiring sharings from various types of people across different fields, from psychiatrics, psychologist, doctor to patients.

Mental health issues have been quite alarming recently in Malaysia. The awareness finally began and professionals are taking endless effort in educating the citizen. It's not something to be ashamed of. Often at times, we only will feel "eeeeeeew, this fella is crazy!" In this forum, we get to understand some misconceptions, whether it's science or non-science factors or how mental illness comes about.

One thing that i must mention in this is, social support from our surrounding is very important. Support group was repetitively and highly emphasized by the professionals. He asked "pls name me 5 of ur best friends in 20secs." No kidding, I can hardly spell my best friends on the paper. Why would I have such hesitation. Doctor was right, he said, we can never have 1 best friend. We need to find more, if not, 1 best friend decides to leave us and we'll be left with nobody and it'll cause depression. Haha! That's kinda true. What we gotta remember is, we're not living for anyone in this world. We're living for ourselves :) Even the whole decides to fall apart, we still have us! :)

What's more, 2 noble mothers took the floor with their experience sharing of the recovery journey from mental illness. Tears were struggling in my eyes, to listen to a single mother raises two children with mental illness all by herself. The tormenting 17 crazy years were shocking. Imagine, it's 17 years and right now, she's standing in front of everyone telling us how proud she is towards her children. So much of courage, so much of patience and preseverance. How wonderful God provided her, to sustain her with energy and strong will with the beliefs of never give up. We can't measure the love that our mother provided to us. We can't ever measure with a yardstick. No. This is called the unconditional love. Surprisingly, mothers never gave up on children that easily as compared to fathers. So many single mum in the forum today.

We never know how blessed we are until we listen to the stories of others and gaining insights from day to day. Together, we shall fight this stigma of mental health. It can be healed with our willing heart :)

right now...

Right now, Project Management & Facilitation Training is on going among the students. It's nice to have students around, to discuss things over, to develop and sharing in certain skills/knowledge. My session was over. I'm here to write something because i realised it's been so long since i enter Scripts of My Life. =(

Guess my self-management isn't really that well after all. Letting out emotions and being detected by people have been apparent lately. Guess it's my "I" personality which is currently playing a role of being emotional and overly hyperactive/optimistic under a stressful situation.

I wish to be better in most of the things i do. I am not excelling anything in everything now. I am trying. Gimme some times :) Nothing special, just want to apologize on those whom i hurt.

Life has been good. God is good. I have most of the things i want in life. I am contented. Just because of being too contented doesn't mean you're good in everything you're in right now. Therefore, i guess it's the time for me to think about the change.

discipline

When studies begin, the most essential value for you to keep in order to survive is... self discipline :) you've gotta make sure that you don't sleep over time if you've set a timer (but that doesn't refrain you from resting); gotta make sure that studies will be more of a priority than a movie; gotta make sure that studies also more of a priority than a casual window shopping during weekends. But then again, entertainment once a while can seriously boost one's energy because we're free from the so-called "stress".

I'm so looking forward to the semester break to gain my humanity's right. Haha! I miss shopping. Miss a random movie. Miss the casual random outing! Argggggh! :D Missing all these... missing friends and family too...

:) Love u all.

Imagine Me Without You

A very nice song to share with you guys :)

Enjoy!

i'll be there...

When you're in need, I'll be there for you.
Such a typical sentence right? Especially things happen within the circle of friends, we'll always say "I'll be there for you." Seriously, it's not easy. Easier said than done.

"Yes, i'll put my things aside, and be there for you..."

i am touched because i felt it. I am very thankful for what i've received.

home

this is home, trully

where i know i must be

where my dream waits for me

where the river always flow

this is home, surely
as my senses tell me
this is where i won't be alone
for this is where i know it's home


for this where i know i'm home :)

heading home this Friday!

speaker

Never ever i thot of, i'll be able to give workshop or talk or to lead any motivational form of event in my life. Never had i thot of, being a speaker, to educate and create awareness can be that fulfilling. Honestly, if you were to ask me, how's the process like, i can tell u, it's kinda draining the energy to read and do some research on it, but the end result, beautiful.

Started this journey of Development Programme in my first job was great. I just feel that i'm on my way to fulfill my mission in every single task that i do. It's great to be able to talk with students, be it high school's or uni's. The attention that the audiences had for me is just priceless sometimes. It's more than anything :) Apart from feeling fatique, the happiest thing for me is i've touched that amount of audience with my "chants" in the workshop.

Being a speaker, I always have the thought of myself "Meeting students in a workshop is like a touch & go system. It's important to catch their attention within that 1.5 or 2 hours of opportunity. It's never easy, but it's forever fulfilling because we never know at times, we do make an impact on one's life."

I like to talk to the youth. I like the response. I like the way they think and present. I like their dreams. I like the way they talk to me. I like the way they ask me for an opinion. All of these recharge me. No matter how tired i am, at the end of the day, I just felt everything is worthwhile. Youth is a very special target group which i hope to venture in. I hope i'll remain youthful too! :D Ok, that's not my point. Hmmm... i feel youth is a very crucial batch to build up a healthy nation. We might lack of this in the past, but it's time to build it for the future generation to upgrade themselve holistically :)

Past few weeks had been crazy and horredous for me. Juggling between work and studies, it's not easy but never tried never know. Been through a massive emotional rushed journey. Received a special report from a parent regarding the workshop that i went thru with the kids. Well, i just gotta say that parents are being over protective. In the end, the counsellor will always be the scapegoat. *claps* it's alright, I learned from mistake, lesson learned :) Thanks to the team for your support always, without you, I am nowhere from here.

I am walking towards my dream :)

and i am happy and positive about it.

Appreciation

No matter how bumpy the journey can be, no matter how sucks the day I've been through, no matter how heart-wrenching can a case happen, I know I'm always blessed and loved by you three. Up until now, words are still beyond me, for all the love and support that i've received. Nothing else more can I say apart from thank you. You're my angels from God sent :) Dedicate this post to you, for me to remember a day which was important to me. 2 March 2011. For me to remember no matter how tough the day can be, i'll always have you to back me up, and stick with me as a team :) Bless you all. AMEN!

Brain Juicing!

So much of thought which you don't really have time to pendown by yourself. Screen has turned out to be something official, hardly as personal as it used to be. I wish there'll be time for me to sit down and reflect on the things that i've done so far. So many things are not updated here in Scripts of My Life. *saddy* Sorry for the neglection.

I'll be back. I promise.

Just you wait! :)

My Spring Season with Family and Friends! :D

I had a great great Chinese New Year this year round. Guess CNY is all about family and friends. If only the holidays can be slightly longer. I'm still glad that i get to accompany my family more this time round :) Apart from the social circle that we had during cny, we also had a lot of sumptuous food! Oh well, when we talk about chinese, we talk about food! :D haha! which we're quite proud of. *evil laugh with big belly

my family :)

Love this pic a lot

The first complete family group photo without grandpa ever since he left

we miss u :)

a friendship journey that lasts us for more than 13 years...

i'm thankful to have u :)

my form6 support! :)

miss u all... i wish next round we can have more friends together :)

the ever wonderful colleagues - reunion lunch of the 7th of cny :)

the council gang reunion dinner :)

Late Post: Birthday Extension with Daddy!

Having myself back home, celebrating birthday with dad was a great occasion for me and my family. We had the same birthday, how rare can that be? A little family with strong bond is always my future ideal family. I hope i'll be able to celebrate this day with my dad always. Hope he's healthy always, cute like kiddo! :) Hope my mum always be happy, able to live a relaxed life. Hope my sister will be excel in studies, able to live a life which she's worth living for :) Love my family- a support which will never break, a love which is forever unconditional. =)

4 of us :)

简单永远都会是最美丽的

Happy me, happy you :)

love you, dad :)

a photo frame with our words for dad this year round

i guess this present is priceless than anything else

a surprise back at home which i've yet opened since early of the January.

Thanks Huiru for the cards and the spaghetti sauce.

The thoughfulness in you is always unbeatable! :)

Thanks for the words and your encouragement that filled all the spaces in the card

Miss you (real lots)

I always tell myself, no matter how bad life decides to turn you to be, always remember to count the blessings that you've received. It is the greatest gift for us to remember and it leads to a life which is beautifully coloured by ourselves. Have faith, remember. I will remember this more and more as years pass by :) Hope you do the same too :)

3 point 8

7th February 2011

is the 5th day of CNY

a day to remember for life

*hardcore*

~_~