Final Season

Tomorrow is the last day of internship.
I mean, really LAST DAY-last day internship.
No more.
Yet looking forward, yet can't bear to leave.

I will miss them all. =)
For our laughters, lame jokes, fighting spirit and team work.
Most importantly, i'll miss them in person.

It's time for a short break.
Shan Na needs holidays, to rest and lepak around for a while.
Time to catch up with my family and friends.

I'll be back!

*keeping fingers crossed*

=)

101%

thank you. =)

The Essence

Sometimes,
it's not just about you.
it's not about the work-WORK.
it's not about the payment.
it's not about who's more competent than who.

it's about passion.
it's about support.
it's about sharing.
it's about teaching.
it's about humanity.
it's about human.
it's about love.

it seems neither long nor short.
times passes like a strike of lightning.
full stop it is.

I learned to be thankful for who i am.
I learned to be blessed by supportive people around.
I learned to be supportive and less pessimistic.
I learned to be strong and have faith in what i am doing.
I learned to share what i have, not keep what I've gained.

Well, i should also have learned not to be that emotional. =)
and too bad, i am a human being.
Life is a learning process of growth.
It's good to be at the fork of the road, and think ahead.

Shan Na is grateful to you, you and you. =)

Meatball'ed!

Yay! So, Steph and I had Meatball'ed!

The title is unusually long.

"Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs".

I was anticipated for its' debut, but the outcome didn't really hit me 100%. Incongruent with my expectation. =D

Still, love it!

Anyway, this movie was light-hearted. :) Quite meaningful towards the end *someone cried*, and family-oriented. Just that, it's a bit off from the real world la. How can spaghetti become the tornado? So grossed. Hehe! =)

There's always hidden story behind each work piece.

This movie portrays the family value of real life.

Parents seldom voice out the heart.

Always think that kids are always kids.

Will never make something big.

Deep down inside, parents are actually proud of their own children.

Just that, they only tell out loud INSIDE the heart...

It's time to invent the heart machine to help human to translate the heart wave into words. =D Just like what the father had in the movie, saying "I love you, son."I hope I will tell how much I love and feel proud of my child next time.

It's really really important for them to know that. =)

Lesson of the day/movie:

"Be who you think you want to be. It's good to have goal in life."

It's time for me to search for mine. =)

Just Another 90 Degree

Well, let's just name her E.

I do not have much positive experience with this E.

E always scale down her impression with certain lil irresponsible actions.

Neither I like E nor do I hate her.

Just being... a passenger.

Recently, this E changed my impression towards her.

Wonder why there's this change which somehow recharge some +ve energy towards me. Her initiative, her care towards others, did impact me a lil. I perceive it as genuine and I hope it is true.

Today, i realised something.

Often, we look things so negatively, until we really really forget the essense of a person. It's sucha big reflection upon myself, for I, looking at E, from previous until now. Though me and E are just merely acquaintance, but I sincerely hope that she can be as good as now, or even better than now. ^^ Pray for her and do hope her surroundings give her a chance to see her improvement. :)

Listening to O Holy Night while jotting this down. Christmas is going to hit 2009 and people are bringing in the warmth. Life's gonna be beautiful.

Yes. It will be. =)

Happy 23th!

Happy Birthday, Rui Xue! =D

May you have a blessed birthday!

It's been a while to catch up with the bunch of you, kinda missing u girls lately and never did i realised... we've been friends for 10 years 9 months! Wooohooo! Anniversary man! =D It's a pity that we couldn't gathered all, nevertheless, quantity wasn't a big influential factor. =) I had a great time with you, you and you! ^^

Best of luck, Girl! ^^

=)

It's good to see how we, people, grow.
From nobody to somebody.
From don't know to knowing something new.
From stratch to at least a piece of coloured paper.

It's good to see humble people around us.
We can learn so much from a humble figure.
Speaking of the value of humble,
a friend of mine told me,
as a counselor, or a future counselor,
we have to be humble.
A modest heart makes a person learns lot.

Don't set a frame in our mind
claiming that our knowledge is enough.
Don't set a boundary of stopping knowledge to register in us.
It's never enough for a person to learn and spread the knowledge.

I am grateful for having friends around who share and grow.
Thanks for being the minority. =)
Continue this spirit and turns it into the majority!

Friendship

Been working on something really challenging today.

= surf the net.

Some of you might me =_=" or "come on, it's a piece of cake" right?

In fact, it was upside down for me because i couldn't seem to get it right. And the most surprising discovery of the day was, most of the authors are copy-pasting each other's articles here and there. And you can simply notice it when you keep on g-o-o-g-l-e on the same thing over and over again. =DAfter long winding story, just briefly let u guys know what am i working on (or maybe none of you are interested with it). ANYWAY... currently I am finding articles or content in relation to friendship topic. Whoever is interested in writing me an article, by all means! I am more than welcome you to join in! This article will be published in my unit bimonthly bulletin (sort of magazine), oh, by the way, the theme of my bulletin is Friendship. Yea, just so happened.

And yes! After whole day of google'ing, i find out that, actually, i am not really a friend, FRIEND. As in, there are whole lot of criteria to become a true friend. Honestly, I am not. =X I am not a good problem solver. When things happened, communication doesn't seem to be the best way, instead, we walk off. And results shown that, we just can't seem to be the good friend of one another by doing so. Well, there's always room for improvement i supposed?

Lesson of today:

"Be positive, don't think that you'll never have another friends. There are heaps of friends waiting for you out there just wanting to make new friends but you have to get out there and find them."

Well, this lesson shocked me, coz I never practised such routine. Thus, it always makes me dwelling on things which I do not have to worry. It's time for a change and I am adapting to it.

Love you 'al!

=)

A day without any on-going event.

A day without much hassle in the office.

I enjoy the peacefulness,

not tranquility, but just merely peacefulness. =)

To be able to focus.

To ransack my overdue papers.

To arrange my overdue post-files.

To do those unfinished items of post-event.

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At times, I will think to myself,

what is synergy?

People are so yearned for it yet so scared of it.
Well, at least, i am one of them.

I totally agree what my lecturer used to say.

We do not need that many people.

We just need those who are willing to stay and commit.

With different directions, how can all be as one?

With diverged goals, how can all be a success?

With just merely a seed, how can it bloom without any watering?

It just need times.

It takes times.

There's always a stepping stone.

Why have to be in a hurry everytime?

O_O"

OooooooOooooooooooo...

So, it's Monday huh?
Gonna suck whole lot of batteries that I've charged during weekend.

Anyway.
Happy Monday peeps! =)

OH!

In counseling field, there are many tools to serve as different approaches in guiding clients to voice out their hearts. I was grateful to have an OH Card trainer, Ms. Nicole, to be with us on Thursday to share what were these cards all about.It may sound amusing to you when I mentioned this is the "OH Card". It consists of two decks of card with 88 pieces in each. (not so like the tarot card which predict your future) but more like a set of card which bring you to another level of thinking, communication and creativity. These two decks of cards have 7744 possible combination of linking with the picture and the word. When people play it, they'll have the OH! feeling. That's why it's name after it. haha!

this is the card i randomly picked during the workshop the other day. All the cards were covered and we couldn't see but we just blindly pick 'em up.

Seriously, feeling is just hard to explain because when you experience it, you'll know it. Thus, it is the specialty for us to study Psychology because it's all about human's action, behavior, and thoughts. =) In my opinion, OH Card is powerful. It is a combination of a picture and a word in frame. Clients get to choose one pictorial card and one word card. At first, client describes the picture. Then, describe the word. Eventually, client combines them both into one and connect it as one.

this is the set i like the most.

HOME and a starry night picture.

My interpretation was, " I am a very homey person, I love my family lots. I like starry night, that's when i know i am home because I always get to view lots of stars back at home with my family members".
I was a client before during the counseling sessions last time and i got to play these cards for a few times. It really did make a cue for the client (me) to reveal certain things that I never thought of, or shall I say certain clients have the tendency to surpress the feeling of the past? Yea. Guess it's the norm of it. Well, what i want to say here is, as a counselor, you can reflect certain perspectives in life with your clients. OH Card will be a wonderful tool for you to do so.

We always encounter problems. We're not problem-free organism. When a set of cards presents in front of us, we were told to see it as a problem, and another one as a solution. I think we're relating them in our very own way, and that's when we link it back to our personal life. =) AND, when we were told to exchange the role of the card, we somehow can reflect that we are the one who's dominating our life, we change for ourselves, for betterment.

I love OH Card.

If only I have sufficient money, or else I will purchase it for my future usage. =)

Recalling...reflecting...readjusting...

I was browsing through some papers in my room just now.

Just so happened I saw a few meeting minutes and preparation papers regarding Mental Health Month back in 2008.

I guess it somehow gave me a sign to pen down something here.

I can't deny I am a very nolstalgic person.

I reminisced those days.

I admired those spirit we had for each other.

I appreciated the help from everyone of us.

I treasured the genuine friendships and the sincerity.

I was touched to see such response from the floor.

I was overwhelmed how the scattered us could be sticking with each other.

Endless meet-up, uncountable efforts and arguement.

We had it successfully despite of the sweat and tears.

We perceived it as a whole.

We put down personal grudge.

We put down personal favour.

We ran it as a goal, a same direction that each other held.

Today, as i was reminiscing and reflecting myself upon it,

I am apathetic.

I could not feel the sense of accomplishment.

I could not see the enthusiats.

I could not understand the message delivered.

I failed to bring them together.

I failed to let them know that it's not because i have to do, then i have to do.

I failed to bring the message "I want to do and I will make it happening" across.

Most importantly, I failed to bring my heart into it, though in the very beginning, I was filled with hope and dream.

The impact of human on another human could be so big.

Nonetheless, this won't stop me from gaining what i've lost.

It will again, motivate me to go extra miles,

simply because, I gotta see those potential students shine a bright light, and who had been shattered and hidden for long. =)

It's all about birthdays!

September. A month filled with birthday babies! =D Am happy to see friends having their birthdays. =D Happy Birthday to ALL!!! =D

1. AhChew- our baby housemate

our "生日快乐”wording has been a year!

Happy anniversary too! =D

2. Farah and Ker Shin- colleagues

very early morning celebration. -.- 9.15am. Haha!

3. Joey, our ex-council peeps! =D

Really had lots of fun hanging out with 'em.

Wish all best of luck! =)

3 celebrations in a week. *faint*

it continues...

and so, reading continues.

I find reading quite beneficial as age paces by.

Oppps. =D

It trains people to be patient.

I don't how but it does to me.

So, let's see what's new today after reading.

Hmmmm.

Are you care enough to confront?

Often, we just shun away.

When things pop up, we shun away.

OR...!

We're so direct and straigtforward.

We shooooooot directly to the point and often hurt people without our knowledge.

Well, we hurt people.

When we feel hurt, self esteem pins down to the deep hole.

Thus, people just do not confront because we are afraid to hurt others.

Then, it just lead to misunderstanding.

Babbling everything behind the scenes.

Complaining all sort of stuffs.

Sarcasm arises.

Avoiding confrontation which seems to be the best way but it's way so wrong.

In life,

we need confrontation.

I like to confront to people who can share, learn and accept.

Most importantly, i hope people talk to me on my flaws or strengths.

That's when we realise something which is unreachable.

We're too conscious on our world and surrounding,

and therefore, sometimes we're unconscious about what we've done.

I always believe this,

"Address the wrong action, not the person".

If we were to take it personally, well, we just won't grow.

1, 2, 3...

We don't go by quantity.
A one or two are more than enough.
At least for now, i feel it's enough.

It's enough for me to think and share.
I am grateful enough.

ssssssssshhhhhhhhhh.
sleep.

weekend =)

It's great to see friends whom i hardly meet after leaving classes for internship and jobs. Weekend gathering indeed could boost up a lil energy for myself and we just solely need a lil break from the mundane 9-6 routine. *well, no more 9-5 i guess*

Happy to see happy funny faces. Great to hear update from each other with latest stuffs. Yea. It just sounded more fun, isn't it? Seriously, i miss psycho-peeps. =) Lots of love.

-Mid-Autumn Getaway-

Saturday Night.

It was a simple reunion dinner and tanglung with us at Tanjung Harapan.

Sunday- "Arthur Kopit's Oh Dad, Poor Dad" stage play at KLPAC by The Oral Stage. Check out our dear Aple! She's the evil plant! =D *marvellous!* Bravo to our seniors! :) I just hope i could understand the play more so that i can even enjoy myself in it. =) Nonetheless, the performers are really thumb's up and professional! =) The voice projection was perfect! ^^

Honestly, this KL Performing Arts Centre (KLPAC) has its style and ambience. Lots of ancient brick buildings which seemed left out for ages. Lots of treeeeeees! =D there's a pond by the field. So soothing to check out that place.

we secretly snapped a pic which the place is refrained from lens.

Blissfully in Love

Good pal's wedding last Sunday.

Can't believe this is such an overdue post, still, better than none. =) I was touched seeing my friend holding the hand of her loved one, walking down on the aisle together. I was really happy for her. Really happy. =)

Meanwhile, got to meet a lot of friends together in celebrating this blissful ceremony. The blessings that showered from friends were indeed great impact in us. The support. The cheer. The yumseng time. The laughers. The sweet smiles in each of us.

I miss everyone. ^^

EQ

There's a need to brush up my emotional intelligence.
It's just way down lowwwwwww.

I do not want to go home with such a feeling.
I wish to be home with a sense of fulfilment.
I want to be home with the good feeling in me, in others.

Practising.
I am practising.
But it's even harder than my finals.

Reflection is on the way.
If only I do not care about how people feel.
If only I have the gut to do so.

A friend said,
We're just too care about how others feel.
We are being emotional.
We are not doing a great job.
Honestly, I think this is quite right.
We are the one to be blamed.

What I yearn,
it's just...
a lil understanding.
a tiny respect.
a simple yet meaningful day.

Sometimes,
I just wish to be alone.
To be away from the surrounding.
To be away from people.

I miss myself.
I am lost.
Batteries are relatively low. =/

Take a Break

In the midst of busy Thursday, four of us spared our time for lunch together-gether. =) A lil surprise simple mini birthday celebration for Amy and Kershin whose birthday are just 4 days apart. Wish both of you have a great year ahead! Stay young and pretty! *loves*

aren't they just cute? =)

to the 3 of you, i thank you. =))

my 2 birthday jiejies. ^^v

Wish all of us will make our unit happening~ =)